When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.

Just had my 214 presentation today. Again, I speak like bullet train. Its not that Im nervous, its just that I have this tendency to speak very fast. I still remember that during pri sch, when we were practising oral in class, my teacher would always ask me to slow down my speech. Till now, I still have this problem. Boohoo.

CNY next week. Didnt really go shopping as Im so busy. Busy with dont know what as usual. Time just seem to pass by pretty fast. School, tuition, tv, online. Thats my life. Im still a slacker and till now, I have only completed two tutorial. Sometimes, I think that Im really very lucky that I can still survive in uni despite being a lazy and blur lk sotong person.

Will be spending my CNY in genting, AGAIN. But this time round, I will be going with my family and relatives. I doubt it will be as fun.

Break break break....



Nice Phrase:
There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.

posted by cutechicky @ 1/31/2008 0 Comments

Guoqiang bdae celebration at island resort, east coast park, on fri night. From a not hungry chicky, i turn hungry becos e walk from e bus stop to the resort is half an hour long. Arg..

Had a nice talk with uysim at the beach in the wee hours.. Talk alot.. Know more about him and once again, he saw the weak side of me. Has been hiding my emotions for quite some time and it feels nice after letting them out. Thanks guy...

Rebonded my hair today.. After rebonding, I kind of regret it. Realise I prefer my thick n long hair...It feels nice to see them on my head..Now, its gone..Haixxx

Efforts might not pay off at times.

posted by cutechicky @ 1/27/2008 0 Comments

Today I learnt something in class that set me thinking. It goes like this:

Year 1 2 3
Price 1 2 1
Whats the percentage change at the end of year 3? Its zero although the price increase to 2 bucks in year 2.

Sometimes, a relationship is just like this. It started off with nothing and grow slowly to become something after the couple put in effort in nurturing the relationship. When the two of them break up, everything change back into nothing. This happens to many of us. So why does everyone still wants to be attached after all the falls? It all boil down to trust. Its because all of us choose to trust that there are true love and the person who said "I Love You" to you seriously love you..

Do you know that once the trust wall is broken down, it takes time to build back?

posted by cutechicky @ 1/24/2008 0 Comments

Work is piling up. Lots and lots of work. Projects, reports, quizzes, presentations, cca booth... I can foresee myself to be super busy the next few weeks.

I should have gotten used by all this shit after survivng for 3 semesters in NTU. But why am I still complaining over here. I dont know. It seems like although I know that Ive lots of things to be done and I have to get all of them done, I often sat down and start wandering off into my own lala land. I dont know where to start from, which work to begin. I took hours to complete one single task. I get distracted easily by other things. My mind simply doesnt want to follow my command.

I dont feel stress. Its because of this lack of urgency that makes me worry. Without even a tiny bit of stress, how am I going to get my work done on time.

Wheres the old gekeng? Wheres the gekeng who can finish her work fast and spend the rest of her night sleeping and watching tv away? Wheres the gekeng who always took pride in her work, doing the very best in things that she has set herself to do? Where are you...

Perhaps, I have changed....

posted by cutechicky @ 1/23/2008 0 Comments

JB trip yest..

Woke up early in the morning and set off to JB with the usual clique.. The trip was quite a funny trip cos we ended up playing scrabble and frisbees instead of shopping and walking around. Neverthless, we had a fun time together.=)

Feeling pretty emo and sad yest. Thanks for the talk.

Have you forgotten? A simple qn posted by andrea and tears just rolled down my cheecks.

Trying to move on..

posted by cutechicky @ 1/20/2008 0 Comments

Its the day of the month

Without knowing why, I went to listen to several Jay Chou songs and read the lyrics of his songs just now. Im not a Jay Chou fan. I dont have any of his CDs, I only have less than 5 of his songs in my itunes, I dont sing his songs in KTV, I dont fancy him. Out of the blue, I just went youtube, to watch his MV.

I know most of the tunes well as most of my friends always dont fail to sing these songs in KTV. But, during those singing sessions, I never bothered about the meaning behind the lyrics. Until today, then I realised that his songs expresses thoughts and experiences that many of us had gone through, or maybe only me. Dont really know how to describe but I think the lyrics are meaninful.

How funny is that. After so many years since he became a single, then I realised the meaning behind his songs. I used to think that those fans who are crazy over him are really crazy as he doesnt has look as well. Now, I know the reasons behind it.

Both of them loved his songs. Ive got the CD from him but I never played it before. Its still in my drawer, still wrapped in that wrapper. I didnt get influence by them to like Jay, never. But now, discovering him myself, I start to like his songs. How strange..

Time is often a important factor in one's life. Opportunity, chances, love..
Once you missed it, you missed it.
Doing different things at different time will also lead us to different endings..

Exactly 3 months ago at this date, one phase of my life ended...

posted by cutechicky @ 1/15/2008 0 Comments

A relaxing sunday..

It has been ancient since I spend my Sunday at home like this. Had been going out frequently on weekends for the past two months...

Its time like this when you realise friends are kind of important because its quite lonely to be alone, especially when none of your family members are at home.

Managed to get some school work done but it takes me like a few hours to finish one assignment cos I totally have no mood to do school work.

Yesterday saw this not-that close friend of mine with his new gf. It kind of set me thinking whether feelings can change that fast. Its really scary to know that one can change his/her target so quickly, like one or two months time, maybe even lesser than that. If thats the case, how do you know whether the person beside you is truthful to you? How do you know whether your partner will be with you forever?

I guess it all boils down to trust.

-Trusting in the heart is most sensual risk of all-

posted by cutechicky @ 1/13/2008 0 Comments

Its only the first week of school and I woke up late for lesson!

Set my alarm at 645am as my lecture starts at 830am. Who knows, I heard the gate of my house opening and realise that it was 810am. Decided not to go for the lecture. 2.5hrs of travelling for 1 hr of lecture is definitely a waste of time.

Schoolwork starts to pour in and official lecture and tutorial style lessons will be starting next week. Tuition has officially resumed with a new student whom I just accepted. CCA has also officially resumed. I foresee that the whole cycle of school life will continue. 13weeks of school and 2 weeks of examination. Thats what uni life is all about.

I still remember the image that I will look for when I walked towards the place. It used to be always there and it became I hope for it to be there. Now, I know, it will never be there.

posted by cutechicky @ 1/11/2008 0 Comments

School's starting in like 10 hours time. I cant believe my hols are over just lk that. It seems like it was yest when i just finish my exam. I dun wana school to start. I dun like going to school. But I promise, I will be more hardworking this semester.

Things will never ever be the same again and I cant simply pretend that nothing has happened before. I guess, I need some time.

posted by cutechicky @ 1/07/2008 0 Comments

Fever+Cough=35 bucks gone. =(

posted by cutechicky @ 1/05/2008 0 Comments

2007 reflection...

Its the time of the year when you start to think of the past and come up with resolutions again.

2007 had past by quickly, so fast that I cant recall what achievements I had obtained for the year. The year started off badly with me crying on first jan. Then Jan-March was a rainy season for me with tears flowing out so frequently that I will cry myself to sleep. As for the reason why, those who are closed to me will know why.

My grandma's health deteriorate as days past and God took away her life in April. My mother suffered a great blow from this and in a few days, I can feel that she aged alot. My brother and I tried to help out during the funeral, acting as strong as we can so as not to further add on to my mother's grief. From then on, my family got closer, going out together now and then, treasuring the time we have together.

06-07 Sem 2 exam period was a torture as I have to stay at my grandma's wake and at the same time, study there. Not only that, my mind was occupied with other things. Results were out and I did badly. Another sad thing.

Then I went to work in Gold Roast during the vacation. Bascially, my job over there was relatively easy. Admin work, some accounting work, stock taking work and etc. Everyday, I will just count down to lunch time and then to knock off time and without knowing, I have worked there for 2.5mths from May to July.

It was also during that period when another thing happen in my life. Unknowingly, things happened. They bring away my previous saddness and unhappiness, giving me surprises, happiness and joy. Slowly, I forget about my past and start to enter a new life. It was as if a roller coaster brings me up from the ground to the air, slowly bit by bit. New experiences, new feelings, new happiness, new things to look forward to.

July and Aug were months that were full of uncertainty. Things happened too fast and all I can do is to follow my heart and mind.

School started and a new phase in my life started as well. Time pass quickly when you have something to look forward to. I accepted this new life of mine, trying to get used to everything.

Then Oct came and I suffered yet another blow in my life. God took away everything. The roller coaster drop down fast and the next moment, I found myself on the ground again.

November and December past by quickly. I am glad I joined WSC-Vm and WSC-Vh. Both beach hunt and kidsworld left a great impact in my life. They taught me alot of new things. Genting and KL trip after that and that was my first overseas trip with my friends. I found out something during the trip and I have to secretly hide and sobbed so as not to spoil my friends mood. Was so down that I even sms SQ from genting. Heard some of the things from my friends as well and I confirmed my findings when I saw it with my own eyes that day. The rest of the hols was spent hanging out with friends with occasional CCA meeting.

That was what happened to me in 2007. Good things to note is that Ive become closer to my 204 clique, frequent outings. Ive experience some true joy in life in July-Oct. Besides these, all I can remember was unhappy memories which I hope to erase all of them out of my life. Forget and move on to the year 08.

Lots and lots of thanks to my friends:
Andrea: A good good friend whom Ive known for 8 years, being in the same class for 5 years. Always there when I need her, know me inside-out, comfort me when Im down, accompany me when Im bored.
Shiqi: A person whom I can tell her what Im thinking and feeling and knowing that she will be there to comfort me. A girl who always bring laughter to her friends. May happiness and joy be with you too.
Deanna: A friend who will call me and ask me whether Im alright after reading my blog. A busy busy girl with lots of achievements in life.
Steph: A person who will talk crap with me and advise me on what to do when I tell her my problems.
Shortie CC: A guy who always call me chicken although my nick is chicky. Never fail to make fun of my tanned skin. Thanks for lending your listening ear, comfort. A guy who I know will reply to my sms even at 3/4am. A person who always say "whatever it is, remember that cher is here"
Wenya: A friend whom Ive known for 2 years. Although only for 2 years, she seem to be able to know what I am thinking. She will try to make me laugh when Im sad.
Ju: Glad that we have become friends after everything. After 2 years, you have really know my personality and character. Knowing that I will keep everything to myself, you still asked how Im doing. Haha.
You: For the happiness you once gave me
Thanks to all!!!

Now, Ive come to the last part, my RESOLUTION for the year!
1) To study real hard for my next 3 semester
2) To help as many beneficiaries as possible( be it planning for event, raising funds or just giving tuition)
3) Be happy each and every today!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL.

Perhaps you didnt lie to me. It was just a big joke God has played on me. I should be glad that the joke didnt carry on further. All the best.

posted by cutechicky @ 1/01/2008 0 Comments

A New Year...

It could be half a decade ago since I last touched roller blade. It was supposed to be a cycling trip at bishan park but it ended up to become a roller blading session. I learnt how to walk with that pairs of 4-wheels shoes, how to stand up when I fall and how to go abit faster. That sounds like an infant learning how to walk. Fell and stand up but no injury. In life, when we fell down, scars will always be there. Anw, after blading, we had an expedition around bishan park area, climbing over fences(caught by the petrol kisok anuty), drinking peel fresh juices and walking under the rain before we had our dinner. Went icekimo for a talk-crap session. I remembered the two cushion seats. I remembered what we ordered. Memories. Nevertheless, it was a fun day out.

New year eve was spent having steamboat at JS house. We bought alot of food and ate alot. Voices and laughter filled the kitchen. It was like a reunion dinner. After the clock strike 12 and a few minutes after 08 started, we went down to play sparkles and even volleyball and netball at the carpark. A unique way to start a new year isnt it.

posted by cutechicky @ 1/01/2008 0 Comments