When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.: 03/01/2007

Spend my day slacking away. It feels so nice cos it has been such a long time since I slack the whole day at home. But... I feel rather guilty for not getting any work done becos im going out wif gracians tmr. tis means tat i wasted 2 days away when exam is juz ard the corner. still haf alot alot alot to catch up. when will i reach e ending point???

my complaining abt my life has subsided. pms i guess. be it i like it or not, life has to go. be it happy or not, life has to go on. i noe all tat. so i will walk out of tat door and start enjoying life and appreciating everythin that god has arranged for me. everything in life has a purpose.

gd nite to the world

A very very busy week that it pass by so quickly and without knowing, the weekend will be here again in one day time. I feel as if im racing with time. Wake up rush to school, rush to do my project after lesson, rush to my student house after project, rush home to have dinner and after which read my notes to prepare for quiz(which turn up to be next week) and do my powerpoint slides for my presentation. No nap, little sleep, 2hours of TV at nite...

Today, when I slow down my pace, thinking of what exactly have I done after rushing like mad the whole of this week, I found out that actually, I didnt really do much things. Yet, I find that my life is in a rush, my life is veri hectic. Seriously speaking, Im pretty tired. Tired of many things in life. What am i rushing for? What do I really wan from all the rushing? I cracked my brain and search for the answers. But, I just cant to figure out everything.

My goal in life is nothing but just simply be a happy little ger since dunno when. However, rushing here and there, days after days, am I really happy at the end of the day? It has really been very long since I have found myself to be very very happy.

The night always make people think alot. I have been thinking alot. I realise I am really very tired...

To forget isnt a simple thing to do. It's hard to forget things which are very significant to you. No matter how hard you try, you realise that you will still be reminded of the past again and again. Just like my skin, once injured, the scar will always be there. Memories of the past will always stay with me.

I want to filter my memories, locking the good ones in my heart. Finding myself missing you once again.

so as predicted, i didnt complete wat im supposed to do today. e worse thing is, i didnt complete any one of them. thats e consequences of staying at home. you will tend to do nothing and spend the time rotting away. watch tv, playing wif my "dear-s" which consist of chicky, xiao er mu, piggy, chippy and xiao mao(ppl will tink im crazy but i tink playing soft toys are quite fun.muahaha), tok crap wif my mama n gor gor, taking care and being the food provider for my cute ah ma, and taking super short naps(abt half an hr each?), eating...

tmr will be my off day oso. meeting for IT proj and ive gt tuition aft tat. busy life on weekdays. mon,tues, thurs,fri evening all gt tuition. project meetings before tuition. so ive gt excuses to slack during weekends. haha. dun feel lk gg out as well.

exam in like 3 weeks time. scary. so far, oni my accounting tut is on par with school pace. the rest...im still at tutorial 1 or 2. wonder when ill finish doing all my tut. let me be more hardworking and discipline. i tink e time i spend playing wif my dear-s is more than e time i spend studying. crazy me. bt i still lk it. =p

super hot tonite..stomach not feeling well after e KFC feast. flu bugs still staying with me after like one week plus. irritating!!!

Today was quite a fruitful day? Haha. To some, I think what I have done today is what they usually do during weekdays. But, its a good start. So I went to wdls library wif andrea to mug. I spend 2 hours filling in those blanks in my lecture notes and re-doing my accounting tut 9(mabe shd sae doing and not re-doing cos i copied the answer in class). Spend the next two hours doing my FM tutorial 2. Didnt read the textbook simply becos I hate reading the textbook lah. Too wordy. Lastly, I spend like half an hour to read a few pages of my biz law textbook. Great achievement. I shall continue to work hard! I shall aim to finish reading that chapter of biz law, do FM tut 3, acc tut 10 tmr. Thats alot hor. Nvm. I shall aim HIGH. High, high, high. High up into the sky. lll

Want to change my phone cos i have 80 dollars voucher from M1. But.. None of the phone attracts me lah. See how first.

I believe the gloomy days will be over one day. When it's over, I want to fell the heat from the sun under my skin, sweating out and continue my journey of life.

或许我根本不应该出现。

Why issit that the pain wun subside? Why issit that things juz keep coming back into my mind?

Haf a fun time this afternoon playing badminton. Get to sweat after such a long time. Luckily, Im still quite fit. Haha.Frankly speaking, im quite tired of my life. Im tired of my studies as well. I cant wait for this sem to pass quickly.

When the day turns into dark, I find myself being drag into the world of loneliness and I find myself missing you once again.

Life is full of ups and downs.
God is fair in a way that you get to enjoy both of them.
God didnt promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain.
But he did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears and light for the way.

One day, I believe I will be standing on the beach, enjoying the sea breeze, watching the wave, reminiscing the happy days with a smile on my face.

God, I need your help to cure all my pain n sickness.

Tons of work to do yet im sitting n stoning infront of the comp. Dun feel like doing anythn. Please let me fall into deep slp today and wake me up oni when things are over.

Im blinded by my own tears.

Cant fall aslp. Turn and toss until 3am n finally i manage to dose off. Bt, i woke up at 8am today. Wanted to slp so much but yet, thngs juz keep cuming bk into my mind.

My life is so screwed up now.

Not feeling well. Flu, headache, sick...

Sick. Yes, realli sick.

Nothing matters anymore.

Mabe I shdnt b so selfish, causing all of us to be in pain.

Once again, Im sick. Walked under the rain that day cos haf to rush to my student's house. N now, ive flu n almost gt a fever. Luckily, e smart me pop a panadol into my mouth before the germs fight wif my immune system. But, i still gt e feeling of sickness..

sth veri sad happen tis week that i broke down crying. water will flow out of the cup when the cup is full. similarly, tears will automatic gush out after hiding your emotions for long. im feeling super tired. its lk my energy n power are sapping out day by day, leaving my battery level low.

The greatest agony in life is when you know what you want and yet, you cant do anything to get it. All the efforts put in just gone down the drain. Sometimes, you really dont reap what you sow. Sometimes, we leave the decision to God yet we cant get any hint from God what he wants us to do. Perhaps, God is unsure of what is best for us too. When this happens, things will keep dragging on and on, unsure of when it will come to an end. In the end, its still us who have to make a decision. Once and for all.

Im up at this wee hours doing tat stupid biz law assignment! Haven finished studying tmr's quiz as well. :( so im ponning tmr seminar to finish my assignment n study my quiz!! =)

im not feeling sleepy now though. wierd. but im gg to slp now. dun wan a headache tmr. gd nite to the world

I officially declared im having a sore throat once again!!!

Was sick on the first day of CNY n on the last day of CNY, im sick again. Luckily, this time round, it is just a sore throat.

Yesterday was a fun day out. Was late for half an hour and when wenya and i reached school, we cant find anybody outside the function hall. Everybody was inside the canteen. Haha. So the two of us were one of the latest i guess. Some volunteers didnt turn up though. Set off to sengkang to fetch the kids. Im not sure whether the place was a childcare for underprivileged kids or just an ordinary childcare becos some of the kids there even haf HP. haha. yep yep. so wenya n me together with 2 guys and 2 members from the welfare service club took care of 4 kids, two gers and two boys. at first, they were quite quiet and shy. however, they gt wild after we reach farmart n west coast park. played wif them n i guess all of us, ntu students and e kids, enjoyed the short day out. if gt chance, i tink i will still take part in such events. =)

e outing ended early so wenya n i went to bugis to walk around and at the same time, change to our "go-out" outfit. haha. walked around and found out that alot of shops are having post-CNY sales. haha. after a short while, we travel to cityhall to meet e other two gals to attend impresario, vocal n dance competition. quite entertaining i would say.

reached home at 12 midnight. super tired becos i left home at 8+ am.. more than 12 hours out. haha. yepyep. now, i need to chiong my biz law assignment liao. hope i can finish by today. haixxx

Life has been pretty boring. The day will juz pass without me knowing, without getting any work done. I wan this sem to finish fast. I need a break. I really need one. First time in my life, Im feeling so tired of life.

On a happier note, im gg to help up in our school welfare service club event tmr. Will be bringing kids from orphange(i think) to west coast park and play. Quite meaningful isnt it? How many times in our life have we really help sumone in need? Hope it will be a fun day tomorrow.

After that, will haf to rush over to suntec to watch impressario. Its a dancing compeitition wif angela being the guest of the event. so all in all, tmr will b a busy day. hope it will keep my mind off thns which i dun wana tink abt.

When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.

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