When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.

yesterday was a both funny and sad day..
First thing in the morning, ms ang was pissed with our class when she knows that oni 3 ppl remember to brg the thermometer. Actually, i dun tink she should be pissed off with such a small matter becos e teacher-in-charge already said that he will arrange another day for those whu forgt to brg it to take it on other day.
Next, i found out that she may be pissed off with the class becos yesterday the class was late for chi lecture for 0.5hr. n that stupid chinese teacher keep complaining that our class is noisy, late, never do work, gt ppl pon..i mean please lor...we are already in jc liao...n she was really biased..101 ppl was late for 1hr n she never sae anythng...ppl listen to mp3 player and on it to max n she nv sae anythn..others were making noise n she nv sae anythn...one guy brg lunch box in n she nv sae anythn...wat my class guys did is oni chatting...n she keep complaining...
After that, the class with oni 13 present was deciding whether to go for the chinese lecture...we threw coins, play open number, ask people and fate asks us to attend...we even stand outside e lecture theatre...so funny...we end up goin in to the lecture....haha...even jing jing whu never take chinese went in...she complain that e teacher thought tt we were primary school kids...wahahha...
today did nothing much...keep sleeping n watching tv..later goona do pw liao. haha. sianz. but never mind...next week will be the end of pw and chinese...yea~ muz celebrate!!
other jc n sec sch having hols liao. but we still gt 3 more weeks to go before hols.. so sianz. haven even get back our promo results lor.. wan to see my result although i noe that i will be disappointed..hehe..

posted by cutechicky @ 10/30/2004 0 Comments

Sad...
In this world, there are so many people around.
Boys, girls, man, woman, old folks.
People walk into your life while people walk out of it.
It is so miracle that out of so many millions or billions people in this earth
You met him or her.
Regardless whether he is your family, friends or foe
They form up parts and parcel of your life.
Isnt it miracle to know that.
Sad...
Because there are so many people in the world
But yet I have not met any that I like.
That is not the most sad thing on earth because i know that there is tis person sumware in the world that i will be meeting one day and living with him thereafter.
The most sad thing is that when you see people with so many good friends or pals but you have none.
For I have live for so many years, yet i cant find even one true friend.
I once have one but soon lost contact due to the fact that both of us are busy in study
I regret for not treasuring it but that was when i am still young.
I suddenly wake up from my dream...
To realise that actually I have no best friends.
All i have is juz a group of friends ,that are just like passer-by, walking in and out of my life.
Isnt it sad to realise that only after living for 17 years.
I have finally waken up from my beautiful dream
How i hope that it wasnt a dream but is a reality.
In the end, the friends around me are just inside my dream....


No words can describe how i feel now...

posted by cutechicky @ 10/28/2004 0 Comments

promo end yesterday with phys.. it was a bad ending becos i dun tink i can do well in phy liao. first, e paper is quite difficult..next, i cant finish e paper!!!thats the worst part. i panick when i noe that i left 15 min for ard 7 mcq qns. so i ended up wif lot of careless mistake and i anyhow shade e OAS sheet. first time i freak out for phy. oh my god. my A is gone. all my hardwork had gone into the drain. i had did so many qns for phy and maths c that i did not practice fmaths until the last min. with vectors still having a big question mark, i went to take fmaths paper. haix. end up, i tink i screw up fmaths. cos i left 30 marks blank and vectors contribute to 2/3 of this 30 marks. den, phy was not much beta. tink gona fail mcq. and for section b and c, i dunno i got careless mistake ant...but confirm i got 10 makrs gone...what the....maths c is oni my hope..pray that i can really get an A. tink if i dun haf tons of careless mistake i shd b able to get A. chinese i tink i did badly..my teacher sae e whole class didnt do well..i promise myself that i will study real hard for chi starting from next mon.. cos although it is not important liao, i still wana get an A for it..GP..hope that i can pass..that is the only subject that i dunno whether i will pass or fail...haha..but i juz hope i can pass...yesterday went to watch white chicks with andrea, trish, xj and jing..a very nice show... aft all those stress we haf a good laugh.. think that this group of buddy will definitely get promoted but dunno can get e grades that they want anot..for the rest of my classmates and shiqi, i will pray that they will get promoted. hope that god will let those that really work hard to get their desire results. will be getting back most of the papers on mon...scary...haha

posted by cutechicky @ 10/23/2004 0 Comments

hohoho...i'm oni left wif one more paper.tml im goin out to play!!!hehe..tml is phys...so i later i muz mug hard cos i wana do well in tt subject...
GP:tink will fail or juz pass
Chi:can pass but badly done
Cmaths: dunno can get A ant
Fmaths: dunno can pass ant
Phy: haven take yet
Next mon i will b getting back my chi n cmaths result..scared...think i did quite badly this time round..but i wun tink abt it during e weekend cos i wana enjoy it..den next week go sch den i suffer..hehe
off to mug now...

posted by cutechicky @ 10/21/2004 0 Comments

Frightened..3 more days away...i did study.but somehow i am not confident. im scared. the first time in my life that im so scared for exam. why??? i'm not sure. when my mentor ask me whether i have confident, my ans is no.she asked my why and all i could sae is i dunno. i did past year papers. at least 5 sets for cmaths and 3 for physics. i did tys. but why isit that im still seems to be unprepared. what is the reason? im confused. 1 more week. i tell myself. the week will pass before i knew it. however, if it pass without me preparing for the exam, i rather the time will stop right now. i know i would get promoted. but being promoted is not what i hope for. what i want is good grades. im turning evil. why am i so competitive now. grades!!! a number yet so important. cert a paper yet it determines sumone life. how confusing is this world. theres still more to know. lossing my concentration now. haven been revising much this two days. juz cant concentrate. feel tired and exhausted. power all used up. hope that i can survive until next week.

Time is beyond our control
but fate is not.
Determine the path you want
and control it all.

Before lossing it,
treasure it.
No use crying over spilt milk
for it no longer can be drank.

Hence i told myself
to work hard this two years
I have choosen this path myself
so i should do my best

Without me knowing
the time will pass
And after this two years
i will no longer be tight down

posted by cutechicky @ 10/16/2004 0 Comments

Giddy! Sick!

Woke up at 8.30 today. Decided to pon school to study for promo. Think Ms Ang quite angry coz alot of people never go to school today. Finish my physics 1998 paper and cmaths 2000 paper. 1/4 way through cmaths 1998 paper. When doin the cmaths paper, i suddenly feel very giddy and sick. However, in order to finish this 3 papers by 3, i decided to press on. Finally, i cannot stand it anymore so i cum here to destress..Feel better now after eating the sour plum. Hope that i wun faint like last time again. Scary!

All other jc people finish their promo liao. This means that my promo is cuming. 5 days away. It seems to be still long away but yet it feels so near. Right before my eye. Frightened. I still have alot of things haven revise. Trying very hard to study liao. Feel so stress now. Last time i'm never stress when exam is approaching. But now... What is happening to me!!! I dont know. Sick!!! Pray that God can give me the strength and power to continue to press on for just 1.5 weeks. After which, i will be sooooooooo relaxed.

Already plan to go shopping next weekend, after promo. Thinking this way makes me feel more happy. Don't you all agree??? haha.

Here's a poem to describe my feeling now:

5days away
Short but seems long
Having to endure till next week
Is nothing but torture

Time flies
But not when you are stuggling
It always took so long for sad days to pass
Yet so fast for happy days to be over
Why?
Becos it is painful to survive during those struggling days

Two more weeks
And freedom is yours
A voice asks me to press on
to work hard
I knew it all
And i'm working very hard

I wana beat the rest
so i cannot slack
at the finishing lap
i must chiong to the end
To becum the winner of the day
i cannt rest!!!

All yjcians, work hard and be the best!!!
All other jcians, dun be show off to us that ur exam is over!!!(refer to deanna..haha..juz jk)

posted by cutechicky @ 10/13/2004 0 Comments

10 more days.
how to finish studying all the subjects in just 10 more days.
24hrs multiply by 10 is 240 hours.
spent half of the time eating, sleeping bathing and relaxin which left 120hrs.
spent around 7 hrs per day at school during the weekday.so left 85hr.
85hr divided by 3 sub.so is 28hr per sub. each sub got around 15 chp. so is 2hr per chp.
reading lecture notes 0.5hr.so left 1.5hr to practice.
WARE GOT TIME!!!
haven really study much.so basically tml muz start to mug liao.."mug"!a common word in a jc students life. aim of singapore education: to let student's to mug and "paper chase" is to make them crazy!!
TIRED. EXHAUSTED. WEAK. DOWN.
BUT WHAT CAN I DO!!!
after promo u still have chines.after chines u still haf PW.endless examinations!
by the way, i'm one of the 124 students who got shortlisted for the work attachment interview. and i'm one of the54 students who is selected for this program. and i got into MSD(working in changi airport to predict weather n promote their services) which oni have 2 vacancies. proud of myself!haha.going to work there for 2 weeks.but the sad thng, all my friends got into different jobs.so we ended up goin wif sumone we dunno.sian!!!haha..but looking forward to working in airport and learning how to pedict the weather and entering the airplane trach wich not all people working there got a chance to enter the place...wahaha...but this means that i would have to travel there for 2 weeks...sure veri tired...but neverming.cos its something meaningful.


Routine of my life:
when you wake up and see the sunrise, you know that it is another mugging day.
when you feel the morning air breeze, you know it is another school day.
when you see the sunset, you know it is time for homework.
when you hear the cricket making noise, you know it is time to sleep.
Conclusion: life is meaningless!!!

posted by cutechicky @ 10/08/2004 0 Comments

Happy children's day!!!
Yjc is the top-value added jc and hence e principal announced that we will have a half day off today. we are released at 11.10..quite nice of her..haha
anyway, today i'm so sad. yjc promo oni contriubute to 55% of the whole year results.20% goes to CA(saturday test) and 25% goes to daily work(tutorial, worksheet, mini test). if you can get 75% for CA den you will be exempted from promo. for phy, i got 72% for CA, highest in class. however, i;m still so sad over it. my daily work is oni 86% while the highest in class is 93%. i hand in my tutorial and worksheet on time and my marks for all the worksheet is above 80%. Yet, my DW marks is so low. If i gt 90% for DW, i oni need to get like around 65% for promo to get an A. Now, I need to get 71% for promo to get an A. For Maths C, i need to get 72.4%. best in class again. but it is still badly done. Fmaths i need to get 76.8%. More sad. In the end, i must aim to get 75% for maths c and phy to get A and for fmaths, i tink most probably i can oni get a B. Totally sad.
so scared that i cant get an A. i do not just want to pass. i want to get good grades, A. Now, i must really work hard. So many people are much better than me..they can get exempted from promo.but why cant i? its simply becos im juz too slack. i need to mug now..2 more weeks..i wana do well. im striving to get 2A and 1B(fmaths).C6 for GP and A2 for chinese.Now, its time to begin..the beginning of mugging..pray that god will look over me, make me concentrate, give me the strength, power to continue this 100metre. Friends in yjc, let's go!!!

posted by cutechicky @ 10/01/2004 0 Comments