When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.

GP IS KILLING ME!!!

There is so much GP homework this weekend that i cant breathe. After all the tests and everything, imeediately we have GP homework. It is not those normal essay and compre but what she gave us were real tough and difficult to do... 1000 wrods essay on ethics and 3 AQ questions on ethics as well. I manage to finish 2 AQ...oni left one more day to complete the essay and e one AQ. wonder if i can finish.sianz

Im super tired now. Tomorrow still got phy extra lessons. why cant the teachers juz gave us a break after all the exams? the block tests haf already eaten up our 1 week break... cant they spare a thought for us n let us rest for this 4 days...boooo

everybody is not perfect...so trish, we need to understand and look at their good and not bad....

posted by cutechicky @ 3/27/2005 0 Comments

yesterday went out frm 12pm to 12am..wahahah.cool

went ot orchard. den ju was late as usual. so the 5 gers(me xj drea trish n sheng en) went to shop for cc prez.haha. den we suddnely remembered that we should go n purchase the movie tix first. decided to watch swing gers so we called guo qiang to cum down. whu noes, when we went to cine the tix was sold out. but snail has already left his home..haha.. at 2, we finally get to eat our lunch. sakae!!haha.. eat sum sushi. nth much...2.5 plates..haha. cos not veri hungry.

after that, we went to play pool for 2 hours. by then guoqiang,junsheng n jing haf already joined us. after playing pool, it was ard 6..sum went home n sum decided to meet at jy hse at nite. so me n andrea accompanied ju home to take his clothes cos tml he got guitar n all e guys r tonning at jy's hse. quogiang went home to get his stuff too. jing went bk to eat dinner. when we reach jy hse, it was already 10pm. n i was stuffing. cos haven eat dinner n i ate so little in e afternoon. ate e zinger meal all by myself..haha. ard 1130 e gers left jy hse. n i got gastric pain. becos of e starvation baz. sooooo pain that i cant stand on the bus but haf to sit down.. den went home drank a cup of milk n it works!!!nt so pain.haha

today, i slack n slack.eat sleep watch vcd..haha.quite shuang. so long nv slack le. my hobby leh. haha. but got alot of work to do also..tml muz do GP le.sianz..haha..ALOT. n i mean ALOT.haha

This few days although got exam n im veri tired,noe that i will did badly, i still feel happy...hahah

posted by cutechicky @ 3/26/2005 0 Comments

BLOCK TEST IS FINALLY OVER!!!

ive been staying up till lte nite to study for blog test...and is realli late nite...until 1...den i will wake up at 7 in te morning to cont. mugging although e test starts at 12.45pm. haix. bu the bad thing is, i WILL flunk fmaths and most prob phy too..if not, i will juz pass for phy..cmaths was still okok...hope that i can get A or at least a high B. so sad...study le still did so badly.. both fmaths n phy were difficult.. realli tough. haix. hope i can pass phy n getAO pass for fmaths. dun wan to fail too badly. im tired of studying le..so this few days i will slack n play...but the bad thing is, mon ive got extra phy lesson at 2pm to 4pm..right in the middle of the day..all thx to the teacher...haix...

wan to go out n play, play, play...so long i nv play le....soooooooo long..haha.. i will slack slack slack den after that i will get serious wif my work le... after this block test, it really frighten me.. tts e aim of this block test, isnt it!!! booooo

got new phone again...happy!!!

posted by cutechicky @ 3/24/2005 0 Comments

im gona die for this block test....haix...

haben really study much..got lotsa stuff haben touch yet...haix...maths!!! no time to study all e chp..so im goin to pick chps to study liao..hehe. phy still okok. at least today i did some tys qns. goin to finish studying phy by tml. yap. nt memorising all e definitions. juz do,do n do.. yah

as for maths, im trying to do e revision exercises now. found out that ive totally forgotten on vectors. but im goin to skip that chp first.haha.tomorrow im goin to study the two big big topic for fmaths,matrix and complex. hope i can finish. if i can finish, den i will nt be that slow. if not, i will sure die!!!haha

today was a fun n happy day...bleh

posted by cutechicky @ 3/19/2005 0 Comments

Good news!!!

I have finished studying integration and permutation and 1st order D.E...clap clap..haha...didnt really study much..juz read through the notes..trying hard to remember how to solve all hose qns..den did 1-5 tys qns for each topic and thats all..haha...but feel i tink is good enough lah..time is running out. so wat i can do is to try to refresh my memory and c if i really can do those qns after reading the notes..yap..

tonite im goin to study on phy. didnt really study hard for the monday fake test. so this time round, im not goin to let that happen again. haha..yap. i haf already cum out wif a timetable for the rest of e week and hope that i can follow..yaya

went to watch howl's of moving castle...nice nice show..comical, romantic,action!!!although animation show, it is nice...realli nice..haha..

posted by cutechicky @ 3/17/2005 0 Comments

This is the personality test that I took and heres the result:

You are a scoop of coffee with a crayon it in.
You're naturally perky, and you tend to get
distracted. You're entertained by simple
things. You can't focus. You're rather
carefree. You're annoying to some, and loved
to death by others. You're a socialite. What
can we say?

posted by cutechicky @ 3/16/2005 0 Comments

Entrepreneur club meeting was so bo liao. So stupid. the teachers dun even bother to came down and discuss about the cafe and other stuffs. they juz left us there to do our own discussions. off we went to make our drinks. unique and special. all the beverages were created by my team!!! so proud. although it is not as nice compared to outside, it takes us a long time to cum out wif a new drink. n i pity our stomach cos we haf to taste all sorts of thing to make sure the drink is right. oh yah...e most irritating thing is that e teachers ask us to SERVE them drinks...they juz made us walk up to e office so that they can taste the drinks...wat the....boooooo..but nvm..Since God forgive our trespassers, we shall oso forgive those who trespass against us..yea~

found out that my handphone bill was super ex.. all becos of... haix. but promise that i will restrict myself from smsing this month..hehe..hope that i can...yaya...

juz now after e-club meeting, i went to kfc to study...intended to finish readng the DE notes and also Integration notes. Who noes there were so many fly that after reading the DE notes, i decided to leave..i oni sat there for 1 hour..booo...den, i came back home..haha..super disgusting. i tink there are around 10 fly in the kfc..they should look into this matter.

my mood is very very good since yesterday. finally ive see light in my life. finally i noe what i should do. finally i feel much much beta..xy, hope you are having the same mood as me now...hehe

Im now a cheerful little chicky. wat about you, friends...

you muz find your own happiness as happiness is within your control.

Make your decision. once you miss the chance, you will definitely regret it. never look back at your choice cos wats done haf already been done. so walk your path with pride and you will defnitely be happy!!!

posted by cutechicky @ 3/16/2005 0 Comments

Im so so so much better. wohoho...thz xueyi.. so fun chatting wif u..haha...

i still remembered that time when we were preparing for olvl. one day before each paper, we will call and tok to each other for hours before we o back to study. it was so fun. we manage to get 10 points..haha...both of us get 10 points. haha...fate..buddy always!!n there's a secret betweeb us noe(wink)...haha

everything will be fine!!!whahaha

friens are definitely important to me...

posted by cutechicky @ 3/15/2005 0 Comments

can god juz send a guardian angel to me n tell me what i should do...
is really painful to be in this state now...
everything..everything..everything
dunno..dunno..dunno...
how worse can it get...

posted by cutechicky @ 3/15/2005 0 Comments

i feel so disturbed. so unrest. theres so many things in my heart that i wish there is someone for me to share with.. yet, at this point of time, ive no one to tok to... nt that i dun trust e people around me.. juz that i like to keep things to myself. all to myself. i dunno how to describe this stupid feeling of mine.. dunno. dunno..so confusing..arhhhhhh....

*sometimes,human beings are so strange. before you get hold of the thing, you yearn for it. after having it, you simply get sick of it and juz leave it aside. is luv like this too? if it is, i rather remain single and unattached. at least, i will not be sad and get hurt.

*Gers are weak and vulnerable. They need care and concern.

*sometimes, life is not within your control. at the dead end, what you can do is to believe in God.

*given a variety of choice is not good at times. sumtimes, i juz hope that i need not make a choice.

*waiting is definitely painful but sumtimes, what we can do is to wait..

*i rather be loved than to love others.

*love creates happiness,sadness,confusion and worse t"frighetness"

*is it better to be lovers or remain as friends

*simple is what i am.

*love means sacrifices. but what if i cant sacrifice anything to make you happy

*forgive an forget is a virtue

*luving someone does not mean that you need to have e person. it is the joy of seeing her happy even if he/she is with the other party

*although i cannt give you joy all the time, i will make sure that i will not give you saddness

posted by cutechicky @ 3/14/2005 0 Comments

another normal day...

tml is my phy test yet everythn juz cant get into my head. even the formulas..wat is happening... haix... juz hope tat after blogging, i can realli study well for my test lah...

juz nw went to visit my grandfather... he is s skinny now.. so weak. his mind is so unclear of everythn. he looks so innocent. juz lk a kid. so pure... hope that he can regain his strength soon. cos life in bed is nt a good thn...

nothing happened. i still cant feel my soul drifting nearer...

posted by cutechicky @ 3/13/2005 0 Comments

its the next day...but im still here...haha...nth much..booo.....

posted by cutechicky @ 3/13/2005 0 Comments

IT'S HOLIDAYS...

guess what...today i went to the library!!!haha..it has been ancient since i last visited the lib..haha..miss the day when i spend my whole day reading a book.. it feels so good when you are able to find a good book..when you finish the book, you will feel a sense of achievement as if u haf gained something from it. a good book can really bring me into the main character situation..e excitement,e fantasy that you haf will feel so great...wohoho...borrow 4 books..but doubt i can finish reading all cos got block tests..haha.. books can occupy my time..hehe...yea~

When the clock strike 12midnight,the end of friday 11th of march and the start of 12th march, my new life begins... although im still so blur about what have happen, i have made my choice... still frightened, still uncertian, still wierd, still unassured.. i dunno what gives me the strength and power to make this choice.. really dunno. mabe its god. mabe its fate. mabe its destiny mabe its him. mabe its her. so confusing, confusing, confusing... but since ive made his choice, i will make sure that i will not regret. yap....

ze yi jie lai de tai tu ran..wo bu zhi suo cuo. dan wo yi jing xuan ze le mian tui. jing ran ru chi, wo xi wang jiang lai de ri zi li, shi kuai le er bu shi bei shang de.

posted by cutechicky @ 3/12/2005 0 Comments

It's time for me to blog again...haha...wanted to create something nice...but it seems that my creative juice is not working well...hehe...tired...went home n slept for an hr...but still nt enugh...haixx...

hols will be a busy one...mon need to go bk for phy lesson...wed got e-club meeting..den need to study for tests tests n more tests...hope that i can really do well this time round to boast my morality...been ddoin quite badly lah....haha...i will study this time round...i wun wait for the last min...i promise..yap..thats the spirit..haha..

after 5pm today, it declare the start of hols..haha..clap clap..but still need to study... sianz...

SMILE!!!!

wei she me ai ye tong ku...
bu ai ye tong ku...
dao di she me dong xi neng gou rang yi ge ren zhen zheng de kuai le...
zhe shi jie zhen fu zhai..
hao xiang fang xia yi qie..
hao hao de xiu xi..
wang ji fan nuo..
wang ji guo qu..
wang ji suo you de suo you...
hao hao de xiu xi...
wo zai ze xi wang mei ge ren dou neng zao dao zhi ji xiang yao de xing fu...

posted by cutechicky @ 3/11/2005 0 Comments

yesterday and today were both very busy days...

let me start from yesterday...
my lessons end at 5pm n after that, im supposed to go to the cafe and test out the drinks as the next day will be the official opening of the cafe... in addition of this, ive phy extra lesson from 7pm to 9pm n it is compulsory!!!end up, i was in sch for more than 12hours...reached home, i did my gp essay and by then, i was veri,extremely lethargic...energy and brain cell all used up...physically and mentally drained...

wed..
did compre early in the morning...how am i supposed to think n analyse the passage when im physically and mentally drained...really cant think properly and end up, i took a very very long time to do it... cafe opened officially today and we were mad preparing coffee for the customers who went off after the long waiting!!!!it was really unorganised and unprepared... totally frustrated and irritated by then becos most people oni noe how to do the talking and eating and not only that, someone juz gave a face to us...sickening... tomorrow ive still got gp test and maths test... wonder after tml, will i really collapse.. last week of school for this term and the teachers suddenly all gave so much homework.. OMG

Sometimes, I really wonder why life must be so tiring and why must i go through all this. I can only conclude that living is tired...

posted by cutechicky @ 3/09/2005 0 Comments

life seems to be dull most of the time
nothing interest you, nothing makes you real happy
you feel down most of the time
and you walk aimlessly in your life

however, looking back,
life is full of miracles.
every second,every minute,
you might make a new frien.
these friens might be juz a passer-by in your life
but theres some that will really stop n accompany you for a long long time.
not oni friens, you still haf luv life...
you will never noe when u will get to meet your prince charming or princess beauty...
once you meet them, your heart will be throbbing like mad..
although he or she might hurt you,
the happy time that the both of you share will be so overwhelming that make you forget all the saddness..

therefore, friens out there,
look on the bright side of life...
dun feel so down anymore.
ive already find ways to make me feel happy after all the sad things that haf happened to me.
hope that you all can be like me too...
try to relax n let go abit.
u might find life easier this way...

specially dedicated to my friens whu are sad now....

posted by cutechicky @ 3/07/2005 0 Comments

Im so bored.haha...although today is a day off from school, i still stayed at home cos yesterday went out le...den today quite sian if go out again...

pack my files juz nw n found out that im in a total mess..but luckily, ive finally finished packing..haha. will do my tutorial later. den at nite, i will study for the GP test although i dun really noe wat she is testing on...haha.. hols soon...one more week. times flies. we were like dragging for the new year to begin and now, term 1 of the year is goin to cum to an end. soon,i will be seating in an exam hall again...

anw, yesterday the gers gossip alot...haha.. den i found out that act 3 ppl dun like one teacher.. and one of them include me la...wahahha.its oni that we never sae out. wonder if any of the guys dun like the teacher oso. haha.. hols i wan to go fly kite go cycle..no more shopping please...movie was alrite wif me but the prob is aft we catch the movie, we will end up shopping or worse, stoning cos we dun realli noe wat to do next..haha.. so i wan to go n play... most of the gals dun lk the idea of playing this type of thns...they sae the idea of flying kite n cycling doesnt interest them...but nvm cos my hubby jing wanted to go too and some of the guys wana go oso...wahaha...if they realli dun like e idea, den we shall juz go without them lor...

loving someone really veri ma fan...c my friens all feel so sad cos they luv someone who doesnt luv him/her...and not the main thng is, normally the other party will not tell him/her how they feel..they will juz ignore the problem..this gave the person a hope n at the same time disaapointment n saddness cos they duno whether they should let go or hang on...being in luv is oso so troublesome...c couples always quarrel,argue over very small matters... so sad... i thought love was supposed to be happy??? im still in doubt..haha.. juz hope that my friend out there will cheer up n dun be sad..hopoe that the ger will gif him an ans soon...n for the other guy, hope that he n her gf will be able to solve their probs and continue thier relationship as long as possible...cos it is not easy for two person to meet..not to say falling in luv wif each other...treasure each other!!!

posted by cutechicky @ 3/07/2005 0 Comments

went out today...juz reach hm...hehe

went to orchard to catch a series of unfortunate events..no really a veri nice show..oni that the baby,cunny is real cute n adorable!!!n sum parts were funny...the storyline abit childish..haha..anw, after that take bus to bukit timah to play pool...abit lame hor..haha.. reach there we went to haf dinner first. the food there was not bad. n cheap too. hehe.. den went to play pool.i didnt realli play but was disturbing ppl..haha..quite sianz there but disturbing ppl was fun...haha

life without friens will be boring..

posted by cutechicky @ 3/06/2005 0 Comments

today is sat and i soend my whole day sleeping...wahahha...yest slept at 11pm and today i wake up at 9.30am...sleep again at 11am n wake up at 12.30...den 3pm i slept again n wake up at 6pm...tink sooner or later i can master the skill of sleeping one whole day...n i mean it ...24 hours..haha..i shall try...bleh...

tomorrow will be goin to orchard to catch a movie...i predict that after the movie, we will be rotting at orchard road again...super sian...shopping now oso sian...cos got nth to buy...den oni watching movie...sianzz....

monday no school...hehe...but planning to do my homework n study for my GP lah..cos today super slack liao...n tml goin out...so oni left mon to do homework...after the chinese result, i finally noe that alvl is not as easy as olvl...cos those whu can enter jc are the top few...haha...so i shd be more hardworking....bt i cant stop myself frm sleeping rite...whahaha....bleh...

being loved is much beta than loving others

posted by cutechicky @ 3/05/2005 0 Comments

got back my chinese result today...didnt do well but didnt do badly either...juz didnt perform up to my standard.yap...quite disappointed la..but nvm la...since it is nt as impt le...decided not to retake cos it is a waste of time. shall juz concentrate on my other sub.

mon no sch!!!yea~all thx to last year j2 batch..tink they did really veri well for their alvl...thats y no sch...haha..hope when it is our turn, our juniors can haf one day off too...haha...

posted by cutechicky @ 3/04/2005 0 Comments

jing tian de li bei ke neng shi yi hou de yong yuan.
wo meng shui ruan wu fa jian mian,
dan wo meng de xin yi ran er he wei yi.
wo xi wang zai ze duan ri zi li,
ni neng hao hao zhao gu zhi ji.
ni yao zhi dao wo xin zhong zhi you ni,
shuo yi qing ni hao hao huo xia qu.
mei you ni de ri zi hen nan guo,
dan yi xiang dao yi huo de yong yuan,
wo jiu kao shu zi ji yao jian chi dao di.
wo hui mei feng mei miao xiang nian ni,
dan wo qin ni bu yao qian guai ze wo.
ruo ling yi ge ren neng gou dai gei ni ken duo kai le,
wo hui zhong xin zu fu ni.
ying wei wo ye bu zhi dao he shi he ri cai neng jian dao ni.

posted by cutechicky @ 3/02/2005 0 Comments

Happiness does not mean that you must have lots of money
Happiness come from your heart and not material possession
A little action from you can bring happiness to the person beside you
A simple thing you say can bring happiness to you friends
Happiness make your life beautiful
Happiness make your worth living
Happiness
Happiness
Happiness
Thats what i want and what i wish to give others

posted by cutechicky @ 3/02/2005 0 Comments