When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.

Jia yong said that im no longer the cheerful chicky that im used to be. tink it is quite true. after so many things that haf happen this 2 months, i realli cant force myself to be a cheerful little ger. whenever i start to pick up myself n start to be the cheerful gal, something bad will definitely strike me. like thunderstorm. come fast. hit me fast. hit me hard. hit me right in my heart.

the amount of tears i shed this 2 months add to be the total tears i shed last year. realli cant believe it. what have happened? i realli do not know. i can oni pray to god..to give me comfort. to give me the healing power so that my emotions can be stable again. i haf been telling myself to be strong. to bring joy to others by remianing cheerful. but sometimes i realli cant do it.

one day...there will cum one day when im immune to everything...there will cum one day when all my tears are shed...when my tears tried up...and this will be the day that i no longer see hope in my life...i hope that this day will never ever cum.

i wana thanks him for comforting when im down...makes me happy when im sad...enduring my stuborness...thanks 4 everything that u haf done....if u happen to pass by, i hope that u will noe whu u r...thx piggy-cat....

posted by cutechicky @ 2/25/2005 0 Comments

sometimes the most unexpected person might be the one that cares for u the most. one that will never gang up with the rest n bully u.realli....

posted by cutechicky @ 2/24/2005 0 Comments

I think human beings are really hypocrite.
They put on a mask most of the time.
They said that they dun like person A.
However, in front of person A, they act to like them.

Human beings always thought that they are correct and others are wrong.
They dun like to apologise for their wronf actions.
They accused people of doing it instead of themselve.
They think that their way is correct n never think of what others say until they realise that they cant accomplised the task.

I really haf fear now.
Who can i trust in this world.
I dun even noe whu is good n whu is bad.
Why issit that my friens always disappoint me.

Im a person whu takes relationship seriously.
Be it friendship or watever "ship"
Everythig is important to me.
However, wat i get in the end is disappointment n more disappointment.

posted by cutechicky @ 2/24/2005 0 Comments

This few days im quite happy cos everyday got one people that will make me laugh...haha

everyday oso play with him...disturb him..but he oso got distrb me..fun lor...although i always lose in the end. haix... i shall train hard!!!hehe.. i tinnk life in school will be boring if what we do are attending lessons n doin homework. at least playing n fooling aound brings me joy...hehe..im a BIG BIG BULLY.bleh.

finally i see sum light cos my homework is clearing although still haf alot. tink will finish sooner or later lah...haha..

yea~think this weekend will be a fun one cos im occupied...saturday most prob will be goin out in the afternoon...at nite, i need to tend the cafe..sun nite we are watching antony n cleopatra...in school audi!!!cant the school go to a more grand place...lousy school...actually if jing never act in the play, guess the whole class wun be watching...haha..tink most of the tix are purchased by yjcian.

Follow your heart no matter what others say

posted by cutechicky @ 2/22/2005 0 Comments

If you are the rain,
I will be the river that flows with you to anywhere.
If you are the sun,
I will be the rainbow that adds colour to your day.
If you are the moon,
I will be the stars that keep you accompany.
If you are lost in the wood,
I will be the compass that you brings you to the right place.
If you are afraid of the dark,
I will be the lamp that you can bring along all day.
If you are sad,
I will make sure that you are happy.
If you are angry,
I will make sure that im your punch-bag.
If you are my stead,
I will ensure that I will always be there for you.
If we are truly in love with each other,
I will make sure that I will never leave you.

Poem created not by me but edited by me.

posted by cutechicky @ 2/20/2005 0 Comments

One guy and one gal met each other one day. fate brings them together without them knowing. They were strangers. Just like what all people will do, they never communicate much when they first met. Gradually, due to many events that took place around them, they become closer. They start to talk to each other but not on their private life. They went through all sorts of obstacles together with their friends. As the days passed, they have started to develop a strong bond between them without them knowing. They started to be more open with each other. They play, they tease, they laugh ,they share their saddness together. They tok about everything under the sun. They care about one another's feeling. They becum close friends. Their friendship worsen one day when rumours started, saying that both of them are an item. They started to get sad and disappointed. They even stop talking to each other and treat each other coldly for a day or two for a few times. However, God is kind to them. Whenever they are sad or angry, one party will tell the other party about it. Both of them will gve in and start playing,teasing and talking again. Their bond get stronger, stronger and more strong. So strong that even fire cant enter it. They believed that no matter what people say, they will be best of friends.

posted by cutechicky @ 2/19/2005 0 Comments

Im so sian. Im so tired, physically and mentally.

How i wish that i can go to another island.
An island that no one knows me so that I can be myself.
An island where there is no worry no saddness but oni happiness
How i wish that i can find someone whu can really gif me true happiness
Someone whu can make me laugh all day n all nite

Life is miserable yet ive to carry on
I dun mind the tiredness if wat i get in return is happiness.
but it doesnt seem to be so

Happy is what i want to be but it seems that im bound to be sad almost once everyweek

posted by cutechicky @ 2/18/2005 0 Comments

My life is screwed up
whu can tell me why
All the things i do
seems not to be right

As the days past
i tink im rite
getting more n more sad each day
with nothing in mind

all that i wan now
is to haf someone i trust
to share the problems i had
so that im nt so sad

i hate this life
i hate myself
i hate my actions
i hate everything now

i tink its time
for me to change
to change back to the same old gekeng
whus quiet and sianz.

posted by cutechicky @ 2/18/2005 0 Comments

Today was a very bad day for me...Im so sick of everything...

First, our class was being scolded early in the morning for not attending pe lesson yesterday. after that, i was passing the physics notes money to julian...but the stupid uysim go n take the money and keep inside his pocket..julian cum n take money from me n i was veri pissed off with uy sim... i turned hostile the whole day...

Then becos of yesterday incident, everything turned bad now...im sad, sad n more sad..SAD!!!

And when the day was coming to an end, another blow hit me.. Mr Charles Goh told us yest, that becos we r running out of time, he is oni goin to ask sum of them to present. den i was not asked to present. so i did not prepare on the trnsparency...den he sudd ask me to present so i told him the reason why i was not prepared. so he go thru the qn n halfway, i tink hestuck n dunno how to explain or do, he blamed me for not preparing on the transparency...i was real angry that time..if he wasnt a teacher, i would haf blow out my top...EXTREMELY UNREASONALBE!!! i rushed and write the ans on the transparency and now, he did not wan to go thru e qn anymore.. FINE!!! so wat if he is frm hwa zhong..so wat if he is frm oxford...so wat if he has a lot of control in the school.. it is HIM whu never ask me to present... this type of thing already happen to me twice... n today im really pissed off...wat if i present...i oni no the first part...does it mean that if i present then he will noe how to explain...IM REAL ANGRY AND PISSED OFF... Im starting to hate physics... MY INTEREST IN PHYSICS IS NO LONGER THERE...

So many things happen to me when i is oni feb now... i dunno wat will happen next.. im realli tired...im realli sad... im really pissed off!!!

posted by cutechicky @ 2/15/2005 0 Comments

today was supposed to be a happy day but in the end, i was sad.

it is valentine's day today. i used 8 hours yesterday to prepare prez for the whole class...andrea,xj,jing,trish,mingli,jy,julian hae special prez frm me,hanf made prez, while the rest recieved chocolates...i recieved rose and some food in return by them..so fun exchanging gift..

after that,something bad happen and frm then, ive no mood at all...but went to watch seould raiders with e gals but i end up sleeping for 15min n hearing ppl toking during the whole show...and they were loud!!!!quite fed up after that plus i was realli moody by then...but on average, the show is oni so-so...not veri nice nor ver bad...

reach home after smsing...more moody...plus im tired but yet i need to do homework...luckily we don not need to hand in AQ tml...heng..

i juz wana sae that...im moody on valentines day..so sad...haix...hope that next yr one will be beta...

Sometimes, the most best and most beautiful thing in the world cant be seen, cant be touched, but can be feel in he heart.

posted by cutechicky @ 2/14/2005 0 Comments

imagine wrapping roses from 10am to 9pm...thats what i did today!!!

first, i went back to yjc today to wrap the roses for entrepreneur club cos they wana sell lah.they never buy enough materials so end up, my team oni manage to finish around 80 single stalk roses. by then it was already 2...oh yah...did i mention that the wrapping and even e flowers are ugly...opps

after that, went to jiayong hse to wrap the 200 roses for the teachers and some of us order oso... jing,dreaz and me manage to wrap some bouquet that are pretty...wahha...sense of satisfaction...the guys are so... dunno how to describe...never help at all lor...and chiuncher n julian take 2 hours to wrap one bouquet lor!!!OMG...left at 9 with almost 100 roses unwrap..poor jiayong haf to finish it alone...haix...hope he can finish and at the same time can haf time to do homework n rest....

tml need to do homework and prepare for v.dae prez liao...think will oso be quite hectic...sianz

posted by cutechicky @ 2/12/2005 0 Comments

Its coming to the end of the two days public hols. time flies. ive been slacking,eating and sleeping most of the time.haha..went out yest but today stayed at home.played cards just now and i manage to win but oni 15bucks. haha

Valentine day is cuming. haha. hope that we will haf fun time wrapping the flowers.wahaha.after valentine day den it will be values day. guess will be veri busy next week.

alot of homework to do!!!OMG...imagine having to do homework on new year... thats wat i did juz nw...haizz.terrible.and theres sch tml!!!super duber sianz.if i dun nd to hand in the forms, i will not go tml.but one thing to look forward to is there will be steamboat at junsheng hse tml...guess most ppl will go tml...yea~~~

posted by cutechicky @ 2/10/2005 0 Comments

Tomorrow is chinese new year eve. yea~ finally the long waited hols since the school start is here. excited cos i will haf 2 days off from school.(clap clap)haha.

Tomorrow will haf to go East Coast Park for the Cross Country. kind of stupid and lame to organise this even on new year eve and worst of all, at East Coast Park. So lame. Will be taking cab there in the morning cos all of my classmates dun wish to wake up so early. haha. some ofthey guys even planned to be late.

Didnt do my last weekend although i haf one pile of homework. End up, I have to rush like mad in school today. Luckily, I manage to finish and hand in on time. The worse thing that happen today is that I forgot to fill in the scholarship application!!! All of them remember to fill in and attach all require documents except me. :( Luckily, i did bring the form cos i didnt pack my bag. haha. The teacher is kind enough to let me hand in everything by friday. I have all the luck shining on me today. hehe.

Yup..thats all. will blog again soon...

posted by cutechicky @ 2/07/2005 0 Comments

im sick!!!!

caught a cold. now having flu. tink sooner or later i will haf fever.

so many homework recently. im behind all the maths tutorial now. wonder how e other gals i my class squeeze out so many time to do the tutorial. me leh...haix.. so slow...sianz...

posted by cutechicky @ 2/02/2005 0 Comments