When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.: 12/01/2008

Monday, December 29, 2008

Was chatting the other day about this topic.

Alot of people got into a relationship to forget the previous relationship. Perhaps another person love will allow you to forget the pain, to ease your loneliness. But on the other side, have you spare a thought for your new partner? I believe he/she will be very sad to know that your heart actually still has a big space for your previous partner. Some might argue that one wont be able to totally forget his or her previous partner. But what I mean is that you should at least have the mentality that if given a chance to patch back with your previous partner now, you will strongly say that you wont want it. I think only at that point of time, then you should welcome another person in your life. Otherwise, it would be unfair to the current partner, as your heart still strongly belongs to your previous one.

There was a similar discussion on some SCV show before. They were saying there are two types of people when it comes into a relationship. The first type is people who will go into a relationship as long as someone happens to stop by in your life. For example, whoever that has not bad characteristics and appearance who appears in your life and express slight interest in you, you will get together with him or her. Perhaps I can say it as people fishing for a bait. No matter what type of fishes, he will get it up. The second type is people who will only go into a relationship when he or she seriously thinks that the person is the right one, the one he or she wants to live the rest of the life with.

I realised if you have not get into a relationship before, you wont be so afraid of loneliness at our age. You will think that it will be a blessing if someone loves you come by in your life. Otherwise, you are contented with having just your friends and family members beside you. However, if you have once been into a relationship, you will feel the loneliness of not having someone by your side. The loneliness feeling is especially strong when you have just ended a relationship or at night or when you saw another couple living happily and start thinking why your own relationship didnt last..

Human.. I can only say we are greedy creatures.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Its the christmas season again. Soon it will be another brand new year.

Christmas eve actually brings me super bad memory. I dont really like this day.

Two years back, 2006 christmas eve, was my worse christmas ever. I remembered having this very mixed feeling. Went out with a sad and uncomfortable mind.

Im glad those periods were over. Maybe Im a strong girl afterall.

Life now is pretty great. Busy, fulfilling, quite fun and more time to do whatever I want.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

20 Dec: My Dad's birthday celebration and family outing

Ive got good parents. They are cute as they are short and funny. Maybe they are the least serious parents in the entire world. And maybe my dad is the shortest and skinniest dad in the entire world (hes only approx. 155cm and 40kg. luckily im much much taller.hehe. but my poor brother got his genes =p ). Now im gona annouced that my parents are hip and cool as well!

Yesterday we went to River City Restaurant, which is situated inside Pennisule-Excelsior Hotel, to have dim sum buffet. The dim sum was only so-so but the desert was nice. They served red bean soups, gui lin gao, and mango pudding. We ate alot as we went with an empty stomach. So full that we almost cant walk. Haha.

We shopped around to get my brother's sports shoes. There was a lucky draw going on in that shop. One can either win 10%,20% or 30% off his purchases. My dad helped my brother to draw and he got 30% off! Lucky birthday dad. Haha.

Afterwhich, we went to.....Play pool and bowling!! Its funny..Seeing them figuring out how to play pool although Im nt that good also. My brother lost to my parents and I in bowling. Muahah. Lousy!!! Arent they young, cool and hip! I doubt most parents will go to such places, especially at their age. But my parents are pretty excited to play the games. =)

The hotel lobby and behind the lobby is the swimming pool

Dad and mama..

The restaurant which is pretty small

The two of them...

Me and my brother trying to be funny..

The dim sum with my brother's chopstick..

The ha-koi which is not very nice as the skin is too thick

The yummy shui jing bao. love it!

My brother trying to act pro...

My papa who can play quite well after two games..

My mama..

The pose quite pro right..Thanks to the photographer..

My mama who won my gor gor...

My mama and I.. Both of us got super round face and dark skin. She always kana mistaken as philipino..luckily i nv.. 20 years down the road i might look like her =p

My family!! The two extra guys who refuse to siam. grr.

Love them lots...=)

Came back from the KL trip with two of my besties. Lots of things happened, especially during our first day!

We took the train to the airport and was happily chatting away as we are still pretty ahead of time. We checked in two hours befores our flight time and went popeye to have our lunch. As the three of us arent that rich, we took budget airway. To go to the famous fast-food restaurant which all our 3 friends claimed that its super duber nice, we have to take the bus from the budget terminal to Terminal 2 then transferred to the sky train to Terminal 1.

We thought we ate pretty fast and continue to dilly-dally our way back the budget terminal. The bus came late and we practically ran in to the departure gate. It was closed and the air stewdardess reprimanded us, FIERCEly, for making them delay the flight and forbid us to go in. After much apologising, she finally allowed and commanded us to run to the plane. We were indeed wrong but we reach there 5 minutes before the departure time and the check-in counter guy did not mention that the gate will be closed 10minutes before the departure time. Furthermore, we are still their customers and they shouldnt be so fierce to us right. Grr..

Dine in at various restaurants and they have good ambience and serve pretty cheap food. But I think people there like to eat salt alot as their food are all pretty saltish and we were whining and complaining on the saltish-ness almost during every meal. Haha.

Spend aprroximately S$350 for the whole trip. Bought 3 shorts, 3 tops, 1 slippers, lots of goodies. Pretty worth it. But I guess I wont go back to KL in any near future.

The stipe girls in the airport.

The stripe girls in our hotel room

A very big and pretty white christmas tree

Our first visited restaurant. Looks pretty right?

Stephy and me while waiting for the food..

See that tray thing. Its not baked rice. But cheese baked tofu with mushroom. Yummy!

One of the branded malls in KL. Few of their malls are double the size of vivo.

Wong kok HK cafe. The ambience is much more nicer as compared to the one in spore

Andrea and I while waiting for food. We waited super duber long for the food there!

Our last restaurant visited. Its a very special restaurant. Instead of chairs, its tatami(wonder if its spelled this way). Curtains are drawn so that we will only be with our own group of friends. Quite a special restaurant idea.. Maybe the three of us might set up such restaurant when we have the capital. =p

In the hotel while waiting for andrea to sh*t

Budget airplane

On our way back...

Monday, December 15, 2008

Will be on the airplane tomorrow with my besties.
First time travelling together.
Been busy with Kidsworld,FYP,Beachhunt, birthday parties.
Its time to relax now. =)

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

Been pretty busy to write this:

HAPPY 21st Birthday

Deanna Tan

I hate it when people say one thing but actually mean the other. Bad to say this. But whatever you have done this few days make me feel that you are a hypocrite. There has been times when I doubt you but I told myself that we have been so good and you wont bluff or lie to me. I told myself that I think too much. Again and again, I was proven wrong.

It doesnt matter if you tell me that you have choosen that path. But please do not tell me all the nonsense that you actually doesnt want to get in, register during the last minute, didnt print this, didnt print that. You didnt realise that you have loop holes in all your lies. You told me that you sent in 2 applications but in the end, you blurted out that you sent in 4. You told me that you didnt attach any photos but in the end, you blurted out that you attached 2. Perhaps you didnt realise, more often than not, you have to lie again to cover your lies. Im not your direct competitor so what for telling me lies.

If you want to apply, just say it. If you want to get in, just say it. If you have prepared for it, just say it. If you have choosen that path and forgo your initial decision, please do not tarnish that decision. Please do not forget that the person sitting next beside you might want to get in there.

It doesnt feel nice to be aroundefriending someone like you. Sometimes, I feel that you are true. Sometimes, I think otherwise. Who are you? Which side of you should I believe?

A random thought of mine. It doesnt matter if you guys understand it.

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

All my accounting friends are starting to go for interviews. Some of them even gotten their job placements already. I cant help but start thinking what I really want to work as after graduating.

Working in a bank is definitely a WOW. But what do i want to work as in the bank? Traders? Brokers? Corporate finance? Asset planning? Wealth management? Nothing seems to interest me. Some doubt me when I told them I might go NIE. Some thought that it is because it is pretty difficult to get into a bank at this point in time thats why i go NIE. But seroiusly, I dont find it a nuisance to teach at all. However, if I were to go NIE, I would have wasted what Ive studied for the past 3 years. It is really a big decision to make.

Sometimes, it isnt that good to lead a life like mine. It is indeed stress-less. Taking one step at a time. Thinking only of what to do at the very last minute. But some people have their life all plan out since young. Yet Im following the typical education path of Singaporeans without knowing what I am pursuing for.

Monday, December 01, 2008

Its been a week after exam. Although its much more relax now, theres a sense of voidedness. It used to be waking up and mugging like theres no tomorrow. Now, its waking up wittout knowing what to do and accomplish for that day. Its good because its super relaxing. Its bad because theres no accomplishment. But have to start working on FYP soon. =(

Had a chalet with the 204-ians over the weekends. It was to celebrate vincent and clarence birthday. Hope they had fun and liked the presents we (andrea and i only) choose for them. Haha. Chalet is an "in" thing now. We can see families and friends renting the chalet room. From celebrating babies's birthday to adults birthday to a malay wedding or sth. They brought hi-fi system and microphone there as we can hear them singing and making speeches. Mingli highlighted something which I think its pretty true. We had fun during our stay in the chalet. We BBQ, drink and make a huge mess in the room. But the cleaners will have a hard time cleaning our aftermaths. Its really so dirty and messy whenever we leave the room. Imagine you yourself picking up those BBQ-ed leftover food. Imagine cleaning the filthy rooms. All of us should really try to keep the rooms as clean as possible.

Just watched the 8pm Channel 8 show. Feel so sad for the old uncle. At the age of 75, he still has to work and take care of his wife, 3 children and granddaughter. He lived not for himself, but for his beloved family.

Love is something which we cant belittle.

When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.