When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.

sianz...

tomorrow got phy test but i still haven go and memorise everything. didnt really study much. only did some questions, write notes, read notes and thats all. hope that tomorrow paper will not be a tough one. tink tomorrow need to wake up early to study le. realli feel like im not prepared. sianzzz.

always look on the bright side of light.

after all the hard work this weekend(although i slept most of the time and not studying phy), next week will be not be so stressful anymore. cos the next mon haf no test!!! *clap clap. den next weekend will b my shopping time..hooray!! and after that, will be Chinese New Year. Long holiday. haha. happy!!!

looking forward for tomorrow to pass quickly....

posted by cutechicky @ 1/30/2005 0 Comments

yea!

everything is fine now...finally.. we are juz like last time. smsing, toking playing, teasing around.. so happy that i can finally see rainbow now.

this weeek nothing much happen except for this incident. oh yah... i got 48/50 for the integration test...veri happy!!! cos i nv study much and i can get this result...hehe...tis cuming mon will be phy... dun tink hat i will be so lucky this time round..so today i haf been frantically writing notes and studying when im on the train to visit my grandfather who is in SGH... all of us dunno wat happen to him. sudd he dun wan to eat and drink..so decided to send him to the hospital cos the private clinic like no use after taking a jab there.. now he looks beta. but the report will only be out on mon. hope he is fine...

all of the gers so hardworking..all start studying phy since the start of the week...except me and jing. haiz... tink me veri slack..everytime wan to sleep only...tink i can score well in most of e test becos of luck..haix..hope that i can be more hardworking..but me need to slp more than ohers lor..after lunch i will feel so tired that i wana sleep...dunno why oso...super duber tired one..if i sleep less than i will haf more time to study. all of dem so hardworking... stresss!!!!!!!!!!

posted by cutechicky @ 1/29/2005 0 Comments

haix...

eveything is different now..we talk less, we play less, we fool around less... we are no longer as close as what we used to be. somehow, it feels wierd. out of a sudden, i feel as if i was no longer close to him. think that he feel awkward too.

dun wan tis to happen but yet i dunno wat to do. everything has happen and time cannot be turned back.. the hope for a better tomorrow yesterday was dashed and im sad. think that wat we haf build up over the last few months will be gone in a few weeks. soon, we will juz be friends, normal friends.

posted by cutechicky @ 1/26/2005 0 Comments

so sad...

im feeling so moody now.. dun wan to be so moody but i cant control my emotion rite. hmm.. wat should i say...

y cant a boi n a ger haf cimple and pure relationship..y issit that there will alwas be people saying this and that when two different sex people are very close togather.. everything seems so different now...just dun feel like talking.. used to chat alot online but i dun even feel like replying more now.. so sickening... haix...hope that tomorrow will be a better day...

i wan to be a cheerful and simple ger.. so jy and trish, pls spare me from all the "sufferings"

posted by cutechicky @ 1/25/2005 0 Comments

i realli cant believe...

yesterday was our class gathering, the most successful one... out of 20 people, 16 turned up. (applause!!!) haha... but most people were late. supposed to meet at yishun at 12 noon.. but we end up leaving orchard station to eat at 1.15.. terrible. went to swesen to eat. upon reaching there, we need to wait for seats and we waited for 0.5 an hr... next, we wait for the waitors to serve us food and we waited for 0.5 an hr or more than that again.. end up, we finished our lunch at 3+...omg.

after, most people went to play lens at amk, leaving tricia,xj,drea,mingli,me,yong and ju in orchard...we went shopping but actually didnt shop much...tricia just keep walking so i oso sianz liaoo..cos it seems like oni mingli is in the mood of shopping...e rest were just waiting outside the shop..e group of us haf to wait for mingli evertime she went into a shop. finally, xj n tricia bought something...while e rest of us didnt...at 5+ we decided to watch movie...tricia left us and the rest of us went to lido to see whether they haf any nice show to watch...

disappointment again...most theatres haf been fully filled up..end up, we sit there and do nothing and finally go and grab a drink...by then, julian was quite sianz liao...cos realli got nothing to do...after eating, we decided to move to cineleisure to see if there is any show there..luckily, this time round, there is.. we watch the show "Shall we dance"..it was quite a nice show...like it...enjoy it..at least i didnt fall asleep..hehe...before the show start, i was enjoying myself...playing inside the theatre..hahah...

after the show, we went to haf dinner becos the 2 guys wana eat again...xj left us...we went the LJS and they start eating...me n andrea oni drink ice lemon tea...haha...too full liao. by the time i reach home, it was 11pm le...den after awhile, i went to my lovely bed and sleep...hehe

yhr first half of the trip was boring lah cos we keep waiting and waiting n waiting...after that, when we went to watch movie den it is more fun..i tink that having a big group out is oso not a good idea cos u will end up waiting for each other..so boring..it is more fun to be with friends that you are more close with...hehe...

i just hope that we can go out together more often and have fun..although this is oni the beginning of the year, i can foresee that it will be a tiring,stressful and long journey...

posted by cutechicky @ 1/22/2005 0 Comments

this week nothing happen much. juz a normal week. haha. but ive got 3 days of rest day cos its hari raya!!! already plan to go out tomorrow..hope it will be a fun day....dun feel like blogging liao...

posted by cutechicky @ 1/20/2005 0 Comments

finally, the long waiting weekend haf arrived. let's party!! but ive got no where to go. haha.

i will only be going out next week becos fri is hari raya. this means that ive got an extra day off. haha. i promised myself that after the suffering(doing homework) this weekend, i will enjoy myself next week. hehe. im hoping for next week to arrive soon.

since e sch reopen, my gang in sch haf been crazy guessing whu like whu. haha. tink quite funny teasing and joking around. however, after all this teasing and joking, one qn juz pop into my head. cant one boi n one ger be really good friend and not a couple? why issit that once a boi n a ger get very close, rumours will start to spread around? so strange. actually, i oso dunno how loving a guy will feel lk. i oni know which guy i can be more open to and which cannt. thats all.. haha. mabe im still pure and innocent ba(:p). think guy n ger will becum a couple oni once u realli understand the person beli well and this meeans that they muz b friends first b4 any chemistry can start. haha. at least to me, i dun believe in love at first sight. mabe crush but no love. a man or woman is said to be beautiful if they gt innerbeauty n not outer beauty. so, luv at first sight means that u luv the person physically and not the person himself.

therefore, i conclude that we should jut let nature take its course. i wun tell a person that i like him becos im those ger whu still haf traditional thinking. but currently, got no crush or anythn lah. haha. so friends and family are still rank the top of my list. but i tink all gers wish to get surprised during valentine day. so am i. haha. see whether there will be surprise for me this year. last yr valentine day was a memorable one for me.(for tose whu noe wat happen) :p

posted by cutechicky @ 1/15/2005 1 Comments

wao..been real busy fo he last few days. one week missing the tests and it caused me to suffer for 4 nights...

need to do 5 essay brainstorming n 1 essay on mon, 3 brainstorm on trues, 1 compre and 4 brainstorm on wed... all this are to be handed in the next day. in addition to gp homework, i still haf physics. imagine having to finish 12 physics qns in one day and all those gp homework. oh my god. why did the school give us so much stress when it is only the second week of school. wana complain!!!

alot of things happen yesterday and today. both are sad and i dun wish to mention it lah. luckily, everything is fine now except that chuin cher is injured and he is very sad. dun wan to mention lah. hope that he will take good care of himself and be the cheerful and blur chiuncher that i noe last time.

posted by cutechicky @ 1/13/2005 0 Comments

yesterday mark the end of 2005 Jc1 first intake orientation. it also mark the end of me being an ogl.

really haf lotsa of fun yesterday , especially the jam n hop part. (3 cheers for jam n hop). anyway, my class was really disappointed becos they cant perform after rehearsing their play for so long. all thnx to that Indian guy. i lost the contact list for those whu had sighed up to join entrepreneur club. sianz... next week need to go to every class and ask again. waste my time. i forgt ware i place it. nvm. i shall no complain and do my job. my class was damn fun... they really dance during jam n hop!!! crazy danicing in the small hall... the atmosphere was terrific. really haf lotsa of fun with them. T20 u roxxxxx!!!!

the end of orientation indicates that i need to get down to work. i gt tons of work to do. wonder how im goin to finish it. sianz... mon sch will officially start. i tink my classmates will oso get back their block test result. hope that they can do well...at least pass all the paper. although sch will starrt and tt means mugging, im happy that i will be together with my class again!!!

posted by cutechicky @ 1/08/2005 0 Comments

today is xingjuan bdae. we bought a trackshoe for her and hope that she like it. we went to movie after ogl end. went to watch meet the fockest!!! it was veri nice. funny, touching and cool. haha. was really tired but i didnt fall asleep. haha

anyway, today is the third day of orientation. tink my class was a fun loving class. they are serious in their work yet they play hard during games. they dun nd me to ask them to participate in activities. like the class manz. T20, you rulezzz!!! hee.. but being an ogl is realli tired. i reached home at ard 7 each day and i reached school early in the morning at 7. this means that im out for 12hrs per day!!! omg... everyday, i will bathe eat and after that, will be my bed time. i dun haf the energy to do my homework after the long tiring day. i need to complete 3 papers, 2.5 topics in the phy tys, 6 essay brainstorming and 1 GP essay by the end of this week!!! dun even noe if i can finish half of them. haixxx...

im really worried for my friends. they haf already took their GP paper, econs paper and maths c paper. they haf already lose their confidence after doing them. they said that the paper is very difficult. julian sae mabe he will fail his maths c paper. chiun cher sae he will retain after doing the maths c paper and mingli almost cried when doin the maths c paper. im so worried. two more papers to go...fmaths(confirm die sub) and phy. hope that the school will lower the standard and let them get promoted. if not, they will haf to retain. ive been praying for them everyday... hoping god will give them a calm and clear mind when doing the papers. hope that they can realli feel god's power.

life is unpredictable. believe it or not, fate really exists. welcome god into your life becos you can really feel the lord power when you pray.

posted by cutechicky @ 1/05/2005 0 Comments

today is my last day of hols. sad. sad. so sad.

went out wif my mama today to causewaypoint to shop. bought a new pair of trackshoes, 3 pairs of nike socks, one wallet, some stationary. spend around 150bucks but my mama pay for it. hehe. also help my gege buy one wallet. i like the wallet too but it is for man. hehe.

tml sch start liao. my class will be split into 2. half of us will be ogl n sum of them will be taking the test. we wun be spending time together for one whole week. haha. hope that e temp. class im taking will b a sporting n fun class. i wana haf fun being an ogl. lalala...hehe

posted by cutechicky @ 1/02/2005 0 Comments

1st of january. the start of a new year. the start of 2005.

yesterday was a fun day. andrea,jing,tricia,me,clarence,vincent,junsheng,julian,chiuncher,royce went to chua chu kang pizzahut to eat. we order alot but i didnt eat much becos im quite full. only manage to eat one slice of pizza and some other small small stuffs lah. haha. after that, tricia and chiuncher left us. the rest of us went to play pool until 10pm. we then went to julian house for the countdown. while waiting for the time to arrive, we played cards. having fun time playing and joking around with them. at 12, the guys switch off the room light and start to haf pillow fight. haha. clarence was so violent that junsheng spec was being hitted off his face.

afterthat, some of them went to play ma jiang while me,julian,junsheng and mingli played monopoly. julian was the winner and junsheng was the first to declare bankcrupt. by then, it is already around 4.30am. Then we started to stare blankly. me jing and andrea stayed in the room, wanting to sleep but we failed to do so lah. went to the living room again. at 6am, we finally cannot stand it and we went into the room again. this time round, julian help us switch off the light and without us knowing, the 3 of us just doze off. wake up at around 8am to find that the rest are sleeping in the living room. we sit on the floor and start to chat again. after that, the 3 of us n julian started to play donkey. vincent joined us too. having lotsa of fun playing donkey. i feel as though i was back in my childhood days.

tsunami has caused the last day of 2004 to be a sad day for lots of people. i wander why is it that it has to happen during this time of the year. if it happened in other months, maybe less people will be killed in this natural disaster. i feel bad to be celebrating happily for the new year to arrive while other people are grieving for their dead ones. however, on second thoughts, no matter what, life has to move on. i juz prayed that god will give these people the strength and courage to continue their life and hope that god will put his healing hands on those whu are injured. i juz hope that in this coming new year, there will be no natural disaster, no saddening event will take place.

2004 was quite a great year for me. first, im glad that i went into yjc although the school isnt that great. however, ive found alot of good friends, good buddy. i did not do very well in my academic but i haf tried to be more open in the sense that, im no longer the quiet ger who juz dun mix around. i participate in school activities and work attachment is one of them. i never regret working in MSD. in this entry, i want to thank the people whu haf add colours to my life.

Andrea, you are my great buddy who never fail to accompany me when i want to go out. sorry that most of the time you need to wait for me in the morning. thank you so much for lending me your listening ear when i need it.

shiqi, thank you for your jokes. you are a happy-go-luckay gal whu never fail to bring laughter to the person around you. i admire you for your out-going personality. you care alot for your friends and will always be there when they need it. although you haf met quite alot of downs this year, i hope that you will pick urself up and live your life to the fullest. since you haf already let go of your "him", i hope that you will spend more effort in your studies. seeing you getting so sad for "him", i feel so sad too.

deanna, you are the person that i never would have thought we will be so closed. you have already entered my life and you will always be in my memory. your cold joks, your kindness, your simple mind...to me, you are really a simple ger. you are good in so many ways that i cant remember any bad points about you. im sure you will find the person that you like n he will lk u too cos you are really a nice person.

to my 104 gang, wihtout u all, my life will be dull and not colourful. you all haf given me so much fun that i realised that all of you are very important im my every day life. without all of you, i will most probably still be the quiet ger in the corner. i want to gif thanks especially to jingjing,jiayong and julian cos im more close to the 3 of u. jiayong and julian, the two of u are always there when i need someone to tok to. sometimes, i find that it is more easy to tok with u guys then my ger friends. thank you... i really luv u all!!! 2 more days and some of you will have to take the test. for those people whu advance, i hope that you will realli try your best cos i wana to see you all in 204 next year. it is the 20 of us that will make 204 the most united, fun and top class of next year...

HAPPY NEW YEAR AND ALL THE BEST IN YEAR 2005

posted by cutechicky @ 1/01/2005 0 Comments