Had a fun night on saturday. Ate yuki yaki and my stomach almost burst after all the food. Nice food and company.. Found a place tat we have set to be our "lao di fang"... A nice nice place to chill and we stay there until 1am! Was extremely tired after that but I enjoyed the simple night alot. Nothing beats chilling out wif good friens..
*Disgusting dish created by the two guys: Watermelon covered with rainbow rice...They claimed that it is nice...
The four of us on our way to our "lao di fang" =)
The beautiful view captured by my not-so-good phone
The decent me...
The scary me!!!!
The well has dried up. Saddness and longingness lingers around me but I no longer cry. Maybe its better this way...Living each and every today happily matters most.. Promises for eternity are just promises that are meant to be broken...
Thinking back, Im really glad that you are frank with me. At least I know you do think of me when making this decision. =)
Lots of lots of things to do. I dun even noe where to start. Ive gt two more quizzes, one project report and presentation followed by three weeks of examination. 5 more weeks to freedom.
After that, Ive to prepare for the beach hunt event.
The week after that will be my first overseas trip with friens!! Looking forward.
And the week aft that will be a 3 day non-residential kids camp held in NTU and im involved as well.
Break after that.
I need to buck up. Im simply too lazy and slack and lack of motivation. =(
arg..
My plan of collecting of passport this sat is ruined becos i have to attend this compulsory "ethics and professional standard code of conduct" seminar followed by quiz. Without passing the quiz, i wun be able to graduate. grr. whu sae that sumone whu passes such quiz will have integrity in wat he does? e seminar is 3 hours long n e quiz will n held straight aft tat. pls let me pass.. i dun wana waste my time...
Time to concentrate on my studies. Time to push aside every other thinkings.
Work hard, my friends.
We can do it! =)
Good night my world...
SHIQI, hope you will have a fun trip!!! =)
Raining outside..How i wish the rain will wash away everything..
Thinking of you constantly..
Good night and sleep tight. Hope you are sleeping soundly now, my DD. May you have a sweet sweet dream..
我好想知道你到底有没有来过我的世界。
如果你又来过，为什么我已看不到你的脸。
如果你没来过，为何我有那么的想念你。
The current Gek Eng.....
Ten years down the road....
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The Gek Eng that has aged by 10 years. Omg...
Finally finished typing the beach hunt proposal. Realised being the leader of an event can be quite tiring and stressed. Scared the event wun go well, scared the event will be screwed up. The previous years, they will normally hold food hunt for the kids. This year, i suggested beach hunt, a new idea. I hope it will go well. The first event Im planning for VH.
Spread the happiness and joy to others and keep the saddness to yourself.
Stay happy and i will be happy.
Library trip today was fruitful. Manage to read accounting lec 10 n do e tutorial. Manage to touch on my elective although i dunno what the notes are talking about.
Muscle ache after the run.. thats show how weak i am. i always claim that im fit n strong. but am i realli that strong?
Ur image flash across my mind constantly..i can only force it out my mind..missing u..
Went for a jog in the evening. It has been super long since i last jogged. Manage to finish one whole big round without stopping. Listening to mp3, pushing everything out of my mind, concentrating on my pace and enjoying the breeze. It was a nice feeling.
Sat at the bench that we always sat. Laid down and just stare at the sky. Blue and clear sky with birds flying across occasionally. Blocked all people out frm my vision. No sound, no image, just me and myself. Everything ran across my mind, all the happy moments from the start to the end.
I can only say, none of us should be blamed for this ending.
爱 从一个微笑开始,
由一个吻来成长,
用一滴泪去结束.
爱上一个人而不被对方所爱,
是一件很伤感的事
你永远不知道你得到了什么，
直到你失去的时候.
你永远不知道自己失去了什么，
直到他来的时候.
要遇上一个人只要一分钟,
要喜欢上一个人只要一句话,
要爱上一个人只要一天,
要忘记一个人却要一辈子.
人生中最让人伤心的 是当你遇见一个对你充满意义的人,
而你却在最后才发现.
爱 从一个微笑开始,
由一个吻来成长,
用一滴泪去结束.
Project meeting later. The ending of accounting project and the starting of investment project. Scary. Hope we will be able to finish it fast and produce quality work.
7 weeks to freedom. 4 more weeks to exam. Torturing period.
Think Im probably falling sick soon. Having a sore throat now. Having a headache. Felt giddy while i was on the train with andrea, i even thot it was becos e train was rocky. Felt giddy when i board 179. Felt giddy again when i took the train back home alone. 3 times.
Haven been eating regularly this few days. Only have dinner on monday, ate half my lunch on tues, skip my dinner today. If this continue, prolly i will hit my target of weighing 45kg. Hungry, but no appetite.
用着你握过的手，把眼泪擦掉。Beneath my smile are tears that no one sees.
You walk over quietly,
opened the door quietly.
You entered the room quietly,
everything started quietly.
It seems like it was just yesterday.
I can still remember how it all started.
The door shut.
Silence is all that I can feel.
A short stay.
But a beautiful stay.
Now, its time for me,
For me to go back quietly.
Shattered-
You came into my life.
Picked me up,
Hold my hand and walk me out of the darkness.
You give me light.
Showered your care and concern,
Reassured me of everything.
I followed u.
Trusted u,
every word of yours.
Everything ended.
I woke up,
Realised everything was juz a facade.
Everything was taken away.
I was back,
Back at the same spot, once again.
Sleepless night.
The tears shine in the darkness, showing a sad ger sobbing quietly on her bed.
The ger, might never ever smile again
Taking EternityAwayResultingSaddness
Busy busy like a bee. Im so so so so tired..
Studied for my investment quiz since monday. I didnt touch any lecture notes before that. As such, i oni haf 4 days to complete 6 sets of notes plus textbook reading. In the end, i studied until 10+pm in school on thurs and met wenya at 10+am on friday to do the quiz. At night, I did my part for my project. On sat, went back to NTU for project meeting frm 11-4 before gg for cca outing. Reached hm at ard 12. Today went back to NTU in the morning to do project again before i met 204 gang. Tomorrow im meeting in school to do project again!!!
Not only that, i have a quiz on wed which i haven touch on any of the lecture notes. Stab me pls... I guess even before the final exam, my battery would already be flat.
Im tired.
Was out wif my cca friends and seniors on saturday n i cant believe that we actually talked till 2+am before we head home. consider the fact that we juz know each other for a month, its kind of ridiculous. Haha.
my senior was saying that some ppl choose to believe that the world is perfect.. choose to believe that all ppl are nice. although they noe tat some ppl might be wearing a mask, they still believe in wat they see and filter out those negative comments on those masked-face ppl. some said that this is good because being so innocent, one can be happy over small little things and acheivements. however, some said that this might cause the innocent guy or gal to get cheated.
for me, although i noe tat masked-face ppl do exist in the world, i still choose to believe that only a super duber small portion of them are around me. as such, i need nt b so caution abt my friends around me. we cant blame ppl whu wear a mask on their face sometimes. frankly speaking, who dun lie at all. when i feel sad, i wear a mask to hide my emotions so that i wun affect my friens.
life has been busy recently. uni life pass so fast that i already lost track of what im actually doing. frm young, i have no goals in life. i dun reali noe wat i wan in life. i went jc becos my grades can make it. i took double maths cos i like it. i choose business cos ppl told me e career prospective of studying biz is better than studying maths. i choose BnF out of e 6 specialisation becos i dun lk e rest. sometimes, i feel that im walking aimlessly in my life. yet, i dun mind being aimless. kind of contradicting. alot of ppl start asking me why i study bnf,wat i wan to work as when i graduate, ware i wan to work at. frankly speaking, i haf no ans to all of e above qns. to some, this might be a failure. bt thats how i haf been living since young.
without goals and objective, theres no expectation. without expectation, you wun feel stressed up. without stress, you wun feel e pain when u fall down. however, without e pain, you might juz take thns lightly.
I just wana be a simple happy little gers. Im glad im a super childish person. Cos of my childish-ness, im happy at little thns in my life. Tell me how many ppl at the age of 20 can still be happy playing wif soft toys. How many ppl at the age of 20 can still play wif soft toys for hours. Haha. Thats me!!! A simple and happy life is what im looking for!!!!
chicky has been studying since 11. finish reading two lecture notes, studying two tutorial, did two online mcq quizzes, browse through two lec notes n tutorial. omg. i cant believe i manage to do tis much in one day. now i believe tat one can reali finish their hmwk in time. its just tat im plain lazy. thx to my lazy-ness. I have to chiong lk siao now.
Is it true that dreams are things we are thinking of during the day?
I hope not...
Watched "one litre of tears" last episode just nice. I watched the show before and now it is replaying again in SCV. I think the show is really touching and the actors all can act well.
Well, life is fragile. You never know what will happen one year down the road, one month later, one day later or even a few minutes later. I have witnessed death of my beloved grandparents, both have lived and taken care of me since young, within 3 years.
I can still remember the hard time my parents or ah ma have when they take care of my ah gong. My mother even gave up her small business so that she can have more time at home. Shortly after my ah gong passed away, my ah ma is diagnosed with liver failure. This time round, she completely stopped working and devoted her whole attention to my ah ma. She stayed at home with her and she never complained before. From a pampered daughter of my ah ma, she now has to do all the housework plus taking care of my ah ma. Two years, thats how she has spent her life last two years.
During the last few weeks of my ah ma life, she said something that will forever remain in my mama's heart, or even my whole family. My ah ma said,
" I know I am a burden to the family. Im so sorry for that but I wont trouble you for long. Thank you for your care."
Thats what she said to my mother when she was in her semi-conscious mind.
I respected my ah ma greatly for she has worked hard to bring my mother up and even my brother and I. I respected my mother greatly for she has given up her studies when she was young so that she can go out and work and earn money to lighten my ah ma's load. She has given up her business and even her life to take care of her parents. She never failed to wake up in the morning to prepare breakfast and see us to school since we are young. She will eat the mooncakes without egg yolks cos she knows that my dad, bro n i luv the yolk.
Watched the show and you will realise how fortunate you are.
Im contented with what I have...
