When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.

Was out wif my cca friends and seniors on saturday n i cant believe that we actually talked till 2+am before we head home. consider the fact that we juz know each other for a month, its kind of ridiculous. Haha.

my senior was saying that some ppl choose to believe that the world is perfect.. choose to believe that all ppl are nice. although they noe tat some ppl might be wearing a mask, they still believe in wat they see and filter out those negative comments on those masked-face ppl. some said that this is good because being so innocent, one can be happy over small little things and acheivements. however, some said that this might cause the innocent guy or gal to get cheated.

for me, although i noe tat masked-face ppl do exist in the world, i still choose to believe that only a super duber small portion of them are around me. as such, i need nt b so caution abt my friends around me. we cant blame ppl whu wear a mask on their face sometimes. frankly speaking, who dun lie at all. when i feel sad, i wear a mask to hide my emotions so that i wun affect my friens.

life has been busy recently. uni life pass so fast that i already lost track of what im actually doing. frm young, i have no goals in life. i dun reali noe wat i wan in life. i went jc becos my grades can make it. i took double maths cos i like it. i choose business cos ppl told me e career prospective of studying biz is better than studying maths. i choose BnF out of e 6 specialisation becos i dun lk e rest. sometimes, i feel that im walking aimlessly in my life. yet, i dun mind being aimless. kind of contradicting. alot of ppl start asking me why i study bnf,wat i wan to work as when i graduate, ware i wan to work at. frankly speaking, i haf no ans to all of e above qns. to some, this might be a failure. bt thats how i haf been living since young.

without goals and objective, theres no expectation. without expectation, you wun feel stressed up. without stress, you wun feel e pain when u fall down. however, without e pain, you might juz take thns lightly.

I just wana be a simple happy little gers. Im glad im a super childish person. Cos of my childish-ness, im happy at little thns in my life. Tell me how many ppl at the age of 20 can still be happy playing wif soft toys. How many ppl at the age of 20 can still play wif soft toys for hours. Haha. Thats me!!! A simple and happy life is what im looking for!!!!

posted by cutechicky @ 10/08/2007