When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.

time flies..about one more month time and i will be seating in the exam hall again. prepared to fight the oncoming battle, prelim exam. it seems as though ive just entered the day b4. i can still remember the day when i recieve my o'lvl result. the joy that ive had and e tears i saw in so many people eyes. at that moment, ifelt so happy, fortunate,luvky. tears just rowed down my cheecks. tears of rejoy, nt sadness.

this time round, i got a feeling that i wun be that lucky anymore. luck hasnt been on my side since i enter yjc. my grades are deproving. so much that i realli cant believe it. im on e failing grades. never in my life haf i failed so badly, so terribly. wat actually haf happened? my lazyness or my stupidness? wat ive walked so far is simply base on luck? i cant believe it. im goin to prove myself wrong. prove that i can do well. but things dun look good. im lousy at mechanics. statistic is much beta but i dun realli know why im doing the step. phy is nt much beta. understand e basic concept but duno how to apply. wat haf happened? "failing is not the end". but failing definitely demoralise me. i pray that this coming monday faths test, i would at least pass it. cos i did study for statitic n SHm...

the rest of the year will be long n tiring. study study n study. every teacher is pressuring us. but i dun realli find them motivating. wat makes me press on is e dream to go uni. if nt, i would haf gone to poly rite. hope that i will haf e energy n urg to study hard for e rest of the year. n on e day when i rescieve my alvl cert, history will repeat

posted by cutechicky @ 7/30/2005 0 Comments

went out today again...wwan sick on thurs..had high fever of 39 degree.. but cont. to go sch cos i got phy prac n if i miss it, ive to make up on sat..i dun wan cos i will b alone. so juz go lor..realli feel restless that day..nt sleepy but simply restless. e feeling of wanting to do sth but juz dun haf e energy to do it. during prac was e worse period. tink that was e time when my temp. shot up to 39 degree ba. feel so restless that i almost lie on table to do my calculations n all tt.aft prac st.away went home. didnt go for maths xtra lesson cos i noe cant withstand it.cant even stand properly. need sth to hold on. he wanted to send me home. but if he send me home, he will haf to walk back to sch alone. dun realli wan.but he insist so i agree. lk e feeling of being care.nobody send me home becos me sick b4.oni my papa mama n ah ma baz..haha. happy.tears almost cum out.but nv lah.

today went j8 to walk walk early in e morning with andrea. bought an op shirt. both me n her lk e same shirt.same pattern same colour. then she wanted that so me choose e other design lor.quite nice oso lah. but tink oni gt white.so anythn lor. 30% off mah.so okok lah.bleh. den bought pencil cos my gege cope mah.new pencil.i dun mind.hehe..

after that went to phs for fun fair.brought back alot of memories. still remembered e day when it was our turn to be e stallholders.haha.fun.tink it is more grand now. even e arcade comapny,e-zone, went to our sch wif alot of games set up there lk thoose shooting n racing de.2 levels filled with stalls.unlike yjc, it is so grand n big so alot of visitors n everybody was high there...

aft that went to meet him...had fun...time wif him alone always pass so quickly.but i noe i shd nt ggo ou wif him so often cos sch work will b neglected...oni can once per week...n nt always far far place...go places tat r near...sumtimes go study together ba...yaya

today i spen 40 bucks...alot leh...wan to save money le..prom dinner cos 80 bucks..plus e dress n all that tink will go broke...dun wan take so much money frm papa mama...so muz start saving..yap...

posted by cutechicky @ 7/23/2005 0 Comments

woohoohoo..yesterday was a fun day out...hehe..went to kinokuya and there was like so many ppl there..tink most prob. they r there to buy harry potter..e book that so many ppl haf long waited for..itsnt cheap..it cost 45bucks...Rowling sure earn much manz...went kino nt to buy books but highlighter!!!haha..bought 4 different colours,blue,purple,yellow and red...dunno y oni kino gt sell...although bought 4 but oni one is for myself.. e rest is for andrea n tricia..haha..

den went eat seould garden..super full...my lunch cum dinner...den went around orchard to walk walk...walk frm orchard to dhoby ghaut...nice walk...found out theres this park known as istana park...nv went in b4..got nice ambience...shall visit that place one day...

tink im playing too much recently..every weekend i went out although i promise to go out oni twice per month...but ive alread gone out twice liao n guess wat..next sat im goin out again cos theres funfair at PHS...haha...ive broken my rule as usual..

but im glad that my work is nt laggin. tink im abit more hardworking now...manage to catch up wif andrea n xingjuan..oso lack behind one GP essay lah..e rest im of e same pace as them..haha..today im goin to study phy,do phy n SHM...yea~i must finish....after a long day out yest, i tink is time for me to get down n do sum work..

im a happy little ger wif a happy little bao pei:my chicky!!!!
hee...

posted by cutechicky @ 7/17/2005 0 Comments

Lose my concentration this few days.. didnt manage to do much work... was pretty tired n will simply shut down my brain at 10..haha.. n all e work im supposed to do are difficult..mechanics n estimation theory!!! out there to kill me...sianzzz....

this weekend will b goin out...so guess nd to work hard for e rest of e weekdays wich is like 2 more days..haha...will try to finish estimation theory n COE 23.1..as for phy, will finish nuclear lah...n of cos my gp essay...all by this week..hopefully. yap.

guess life will be pretty boring n tiring for e rest of this semester..juz hope everything will go on smoothly. hope God will plan my timetable so that i will nt be out of track.yap. study n enjoy playing at e same time is my target now. life is abt that baz.

To fall in love is nt easy. Can one easily forget the one he loves so easily and quickly? I doubt so. Seeing the one u love everyday will nt make u bored but not seeing him/her for a few days will make u sad. Love somebody not because he/she makes u feel comfortable. It is about the feeling of joy and happiness when u see the person, e willingness to sacrifice things and to compromise when both haf different views. Treasure the one that you love becos once u miss it, you will never get e chance ever again. Go into a realationship only when u truly love e person. Love is not a game.
[topic that my classmates are discussing on during break]

posted by cutechicky @ 7/13/2005 0 Comments

Im extremely disappointed in myself this time round..

Did extremely badly this time round for block test.. cant even believe i got this kind of results.. might as well dun take e test.. i manage to do well for c.maths.. but so wat... my flunk my famths n phy n e grades were horrendous. didnt expect i would fail phy cos it is an easy paper.. haf lotsa of careless mistake..when i recieve back my paper, i was totally shocked...realli did badly this time round...though i pass my Gp n did well for c.maths, but wats e point...i still cant get into uni wif this grade!!!tink i can recieve e most deproving awards.. once a 10 pointer for o'lvl n nw, i cant even pass my paper.. wat haf i been doin... mabe, im juz those mere lucky soul that haf a guardian angel over me when i was taking my o's.. freaking disappointed..

whole class did badly this time round..frm e second class of e whole cohort to the bottom few class..wat haf happen? why is it that all of us haf done so badly..im nt goin to let this happen anymore..ive aready decided to mug hard frm nw on...goin to make sure that i stdy hard for every test to make sure i get good grades...hope all my classmates will oso buck up n study hard for e last few mths of jc life...

posted by cutechicky @ 7/09/2005 0 Comments