When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.

now, i finally know more about earthquake and tsunami. the nature is so beautiful yet so terrifying. imagine uppercrust having something call "plates" that will move around itself without us applying force to it. imagine them colliding with each other and having cos they cant overcome the friction force. imagine they can overcome the friction force and bend. imagine they can cause transverse wave after they bend which caused earthquake. all this happen naturally. they beauty of nature. the frightening part of nature.

i lost my necklace!!!i wore it for 3 years and it cost my mama 300 bucks...it is a real silver necklace with a heart pendent and a small diamond on it. my necklace...gone without me knowing. sianzzz...haiz.. tts the first necklace my mama bought for me.now it is gone. haiz..

singaporeans should feel happy and fortunate that we are living on a island with good geographical location. we should not take this for granted.

posted by cutechicky @ 12/30/2004 0 Comments

today i have ogl meeting. today quite slack. we oni manage to finish drawing the design of 2 banners and do sum cheering stuff. the banners are still not painted yet. supposed to paint then tml. tml oso goin to learn mass dance. end ogl meeting quite early today at raound 3..haha..and we haf 1.5hr of lunch had breakfast at mac with jiayong, vincent, junsheng n andrea. ate until i almost vomit...haha

went to california fitness today!!!!jing gt the free pass so we gt a temp pass for 14 days oni. there are alot of facilities and classes goin on. today we went for the body building classes. quite fun but bo liao la. they combine yoga,taiji and body balance together. then we are supposed to do stretching and balancing of our body. after that went to "cycle" for 15 min. next, we went to sauna and the steam room. cool!!! first i try these. fun but having difficulty breathing inside the 2 rooms. sweat like siao manz. we were dripping sweat.haha. think quite lucky to be able to enter california fitness at the age of 17 cos sum ppl never even get to enter that place for their entire lifetime. haha.

shiqi and jing jing have also becum ogl.hooray!!!

posted by cutechicky @ 12/28/2004 0 Comments

time flies. another week and school will reopen. can you imagine I haven realli gone shopping at orchard for this hols!!!went to town quite alot of time but didnt get to shop much. eiher went to catch a movie den eat dinner or js walk past there to go to another place. sianz rite. haha. this hols seem to pass extremely fast becos the hols is being eaten up by the school and i haf work attachmet. so i left 3 weeks of hols while others haf 2 mths???haha. but i dun mind la. cos i spend this hols usefully.

die...i still got tons ofhomework to do and i found out that i haven revise my work this hols. guilty man. im supposed to be more hardworking cos next year will be the most important year in my life. i need to do well, and not only pass, in order to haf a bright future. hehe. decided to finish all my homework this week then at least next week i can study phys to do the test paper.

today went for shoe hunting.all the shoe i saw nt veri nice becos my budget is around $50-$80. then those i lk cost lk 100+. dun wish to spend so much cos oni one more year n i dun realli nd to wear track shoes liao. saw one nike with one big blue colour tick one...quite like that one but dun haf colour for me to choose la. so mabe goin to get that.

very long never go shopping liao...i wana buy clothes. i want to buy skirt,top, bag. arrhhhhh... but now dun really haf the money. mabe when school reopen then i save ba. haha.

posted by cutechicky @ 12/27/2004 0 Comments

Hohoho!!! Merry Christmas!!!

ard 2 more hours and it will be the end of christmas. so fast rite

Yesterday went to jiayong hse for bbq. slightly more than half of the class turned up. ms ang went oso. bought too much food and we cant finish. most of the guys slept over at his hse. sure very fun one. too bad no gers stay over. if nt i will oso stay there. haha.

The most exciting part yesterday was at 12... we countdown to christmas and shouted "merry christmas" out loud(although we were abit ltr than 12 la) haha. next was gift exchange. super duber exciting..haha. see wat each person get. i abit bad la. some of the prez i bought was quite cheap and no xin yi cos im broke. paiseh for those whu dun lk their prez...

Heres wat i bought for my friends:
Andrea- handphone pouch, chocolate, a key chain that i made myself
Jingjing- necklace with her name engraved on it
Xingjuan- monkey keychain and chocolate
Jiayong-hour-glass
Julian- a doggy soft toy and a key chain that i made
Chiuncher- a hp pouch
a bottle of winnie the pooh biscuit(for junsheng)

Heres wat i recieve from my friends:
Andrea- earrings and bracelet(buddy that noe wat i like)
Jingjing- a ducky softoy keychain(cutezzz)
Jiayong- a pinky star necklace(nice!!!)
Julian- a hand made bracelet(touched)
Shengen- a ferrero chocolate

I like my gifts and hope that others oso like theirs too. Hope that those ppl that recieve my card find the content meaningful cos i spend quite a long time writing those cards.

Last but not least, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

posted by cutechicky @ 12/25/2004 0 Comments

Christmas day is only a couple of days away. Christmas is to celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ to pay for our sins on earth. Christmas also mean I need to spen alot of money on prez!!!

Went to J8 and Northpoint to buy prez for andrea, xingjuan, jing, mingli, julian, jiayong and chiuncher. dunno whether they will like the prez anot. some of the prez are quite cheap cos im broke. so sorry, friends. i need to save some money to buy shoes. :p

Yea~ tml we will be goin to jiayong's house to bbq. fun... a bbq on christmas eve. what a nice thing to be doing on such a good occasion. haha. been busy writing christmas cards for 14 people!!! the most satisfied christmas card that i wrote is the one that i gave to I-Lyn and Hengseng. i put shells on the envelop and card. hope that the shell will remain intact when it reach here and they will recieve it on fri.

Been slacking this few day. No mood to do homework although I still got alot left. still gt half of polar coordinates tutorial, GP which i basically haven touch anything and physics. haiz...in short, i only finish complex no. two tutorials.. haha. die liao.

Surprise came when you are least expecting it. The more you look forward to having something, the more difficult it is for you to get it.

Human is suc a strang creature. When they don;t have the object, they yearn for it. When they have it in their hands, they don't know how to treasure it and instead, let it go.

posted by cutechicky @ 12/23/2004 0 Comments

went out with andrea and julian today. we went to bugis junction to find jiayong cos he is working there. he is working as a sales promoter. his job is really easy manzzz...haha.. went shopping ard bugis. den julian bought 2 shirts. but me n drea nv buy anythn. julian keep wanting christmas prez frm us.. so mabe goin to buy one for him n oso for my other friends.. fri goin to jiayong hse to count down for christmas. cool. haha.
after that, me and andrea went to causeway point to meet wenbin for dinner. while waiting for wenbin, i saw 2 nike shoes that i like n cheap oso. mabe goin to buy the yellow one. c 1st.

Christmas is coming. Excited.

posted by cutechicky @ 12/21/2004 0 Comments

Days without work and school are definitely very slack. It has been one week since my real hols started. Somehow, I feel that I am just wasting every second that im living because im really slacking and doing nothing much. once i wake up in the morning, i will slack like hell, watching tv and sometimes walking here and there in my house. After that, i will have my lunch and soon, it will be my nap time. i will then take my bath and tv time will start. from 1900-0000 i will be watching tv and doin some homework at the same time. thats my routine if im at home. The rate im doing homework is so slow that i tink i can use the whole nite to juz finish 5 qns frm my maths tutorial? Oh my god! i really cant believe im wasting every day of my life doing nothing.
Today i went out with my gang, deanna, shiqi and andrea. We went orchard together and we saw xiao wei there. it has been around 9mths since i last saw her? anyway, as usual, we went talking and craping and laughing like crazy. we went shopping for deanna prez and some christmas card. deanna, hope that you like the water bottle. after that, shiqi and me went to deanna's house becos shiqi wana play the comp.
Here's a message to deanna: Do not feel inferior and think that you meant nothing to a group. Everybody plays a part in the world. To them, you might just be an extra stone in the ocean. However, to andrea, shiqi and me, you are the stone that add colour and beauty to the ocean. No matter which school we are in, how far we are apart, I believe that if our hearts unite, we will always be the best pal ever.

Life is so strange. When you have nothing to do, you feel that your 24 hours seem to be longer. When you are busy, you complain that there is insufficient time. How wierd human is.

posted by cutechicky @ 12/18/2004 0 Comments

Today went out to watch movie with julian. haha. quite funny for a guy and a ger to go out and watch movie together only but yet we are just friends. actually, gt oni e 2 of us becos all the rest have already watched the movie, incredibles. the show was fantastic. it makes me laugh. Jack Jack and Dash are so cute and adorable.
After that, we went to meet andrea, tricia and jiayong. That jiayong is damn rich manz...bought 7 clothes in one day. and they are all ex one. ard 30 each? cant believe he can find so many clothes when he oni went to woodland and amk. haha.
that marks the end of my day.
The morning sun gives me hope for I know that a new day has begun.

posted by cutechicky @ 12/16/2004 0 Comments

watch super sunday juz nw.quite moved by what they showed. they were interviewing ASOS. den the two gers once hold a show that helps to encourage people to help those children who gt illness. then there was this little boy whu gt some skin disease. He was saying that he will be free of trouble if he can shit without pain. Then the ger sae that while most of us are complaining when we a little hungry, this little boy will be glad if he can shit without pain. He makes us seem so weak, so useless. While we are complaining, we should really think of those who are less fortunate than us. People complain that they cant buy new hp, new comp etc but did they know that on the other side of the world, there are people who cant even to afford to buy a small house to stay in, a packet of rice to eat? People complain that their parents are bad cos they keep nagging at them, dont give them freedom etc, but did they know that some children dont even haf parents to scold them to beat them and haf to stay at home? sometimes, we really should not take things for granted. Im thankful that God gave me a healthy body, a loving family and a group of good friends who did not lead me astray. I thank God for giving me all the things that i have now. God has been good to me. He open a perfect pathway to my life journey. I thank God for what he has done for me, everything.
I hope that all my friends have realised how fortunate they are compared to other people and they will not fall when they meet some obstacles in their life.

posted by cutechicky @ 12/15/2004 0 Comments

Today is so boring. early in the morning at ard 1030 went to phs to collect the calendar. actually i was supposed to buy it frm ms lem but she refused to take the money n instead gave me another 4 to distribute to other ppl. after that i nt st. to yjc to put the assignment into mr goh's pigeon hole. den went down to woodland to pass andrea e calendar.den i make my way to sem lib and borrow some books. after that i went home. after eating i slept for 3 hrs!!! tink been wasting my time since WAP end. haha. but manage to do some homework today. so quite satisfied. planning to finish complex number tutorial 19.2 by thurs. nw im 1/4 thru it. hope that i can finish. den planning to recopy the polar coordinates notes and finish it by this weekend. oso planning to finish my GP by next tues. and for the rest of next week, i will haf to finish doing phy...i will be left wif 1 week by then n i hope that i can do some revision especially on topics that im weak in for eg. vectors. haa..hope i can follow this schedule...

posted by cutechicky @ 12/14/2004 0 Comments

Yesterday went out for the whole day. It was fun and at least my group of friends keep me occupied for the whole sunday. If not for them, I would be at home staring into spece.
Went out at 12+ to orchard and we had lunch at breeks. I tink im goin to jian fei if i keep eating so little. dun understand why isit that i always cant finish my food even if it is a delicious meal like yesterday, melted chicken petties. I mean why isit that i always need someone to finish my food for me when im already 17. sad. it looks so ugly when ppl treat me eat and i left half a bowl of rice uneaten. People might thought that im a choosy eater but actually im nt. anw, after that we went for movie hunt. went to lido to see if we can catch a movie but the timing there seems so out of the way. den we online to see the timing at cine. still dun haf the timing we want. next, we checked out suntec. mission still failed. finally, PS haf!!!haha..anw, the system there is so stupid. we were goin to watch blade trinity and it is an NC-16 show. den the person demand us to show him 10 ic be4 we can buy 10 tix. so damn stupid. anw, julian sae i everytime want to fall asleep when watchin a movie. haha. quite true. cos i always find the beginning of shows boring. but at least i try to keep awake leh. overall, the show was not that bad.
next, we went to eat some finger food den we head off to esplanade. sheng en and huixin were very very late. we almost cannot enter the theatre becos they reach at 8 and the show starts at 8. Luckily, we are allowed to enter. We were watching The Sleeping Beauty. However, it was not The Sleeping Beauty on Ice. what we were watching was the musical one. It was a ballet performance which none of us understand. we dun even noe what happen to the prince and the beauty. however, i like the part when they dance so gracefully, as graceful as a swan. all of us wear quite formally except sheng en and mingli. jiayong and chiun cher wore long leeve blouse and julian wear short sleeve blouse. the gers wore skirt with top except xingjuan and huixin whu wore dress. quite funny to see the sight. hehe.
After the whole thn end at around 11, we went to newton circle to haf supper cos we never eat lunch. we ordered 30 sticks of satay, 10 chicken wings, one sting ray, 2 plates of carrot cake and oyster omellete for 7 ppl. wahahah. almost puke. den we take cab home. we split into 2 cabs. me andrea and julian took the same one. it was quite ex. i tink by the time julian reach his destination, it was more than 20 bucks. haha. i reach home at around one. quite fun. haha.

posted by cutechicky @ 12/13/2004 0 Comments

Wao. Wake up real early today. Yesterday did some homework. Finally finish one maths tutorial. Happy. Haha. Wen out with uysim, jiayong, julian, chiuncher, jing, kaini, julian, vincent, clarence, daniel and his bro, junsheng, andrea, xingjuan and ms ang!!! haha. we wen to haf dinner at sem shopping centre. sat with vincent clarence daniel and his bro, junsheng and andrea on the same table. the guys are those that im nt so close with. however, found that they are really funny and fun to be with.haha. the dinner was to bid farewell to uysim becos he is goin back to cambodia. he will oni be back on the 1-1-05. so long...haha.jing will oso be goin oversea on mon to hong kong. so rich sia. every 0.5 mth go oversea once. how i wish i oso could.haha. today i will be going esplanade to watch sleeping beauty. hope that it will be nice although the review sae it is not. haha. goin out at 1230 although the concert starts at 8pm. all becos of jiayong. he will be there at around 1. so, to compromise him, we decided to meet 1230 at yck. haha. going off to watch tv liao.

posted by cutechicky @ 12/12/2004 0 Comments

Two weeks had past so quickly. From dragging to go work attachment to a routine of going changi airpot. Now, it is time for us to say goodbye. This is the first time i dun regret the time that I had spent. Knowing that it will only be a short while, two weeks, i treasure every single minute in the office. Even if im staring in space, i still enjoy sitting there and observing the enviornment and people around me. After experiencing office life for 2 weeks, i finally know what i want to be in te future. I want to work in an office environment and most probably choose to becum a civil servant. Looking at how I-Lyn work and how other staffs work there, Im inspired to study hard and get a good degree so that I can be as good as them. This two weeks are really a memorable one to me. I really enjoyed the time spent there. When we are able to go home just now, I have a sense of sadness gushing to my mind. I concluded that im sad to leave that place and I will miss it.
Today, we are quite free in the office becos we really dun haf anythn to do liao. Hence we offered help to mdm lau and we help her to do some scanning work. I also decorated the card that we bought for them. After that we went to lunch at level 3. went to try the marry brown and e food was nt nice at all. Went back to office to rehearse our presentation. Den I-Lyn came and ask us to present to her and Kheng Kwang in 10 mins time. Was quite nervous then cos our presentation is quite short and brief. We end up kana bombarded with questions that Kheng Kwang asked. However, it was a great experience la. We then bid farewell to everybody by giving a pen with their names on it and chocolates to the people we are close with. They are Heng Seng, Phoon, Mdm Lau Christina, Kheng Kwang and Linda. For I-Lyn, we gave her a box. Inside the box, there are one pen, two small soft toys with sound inside, 4 chocolates and paper cranes. The box was an idea of mine. Hehe. Think that most of them like the pen very much cos it is from our heart. We make for them ourselve. Happy that they like our gift. I-Lyn then bought us t the forecast station cos we thought it would rain. Endup, the radar show that the wind will blow the clouds away and will not rain in Changi. Dissappointed. For this two weeks, we did not see the live operation before becos it always never rain when we are there. We stay there for one hour. Asking her some personal queations and some weather questions. It will be the last time we go into that place and I tink that bot hung loong and me will miss it cos we stood there for so long without getting bored.haha. After that, we went home after saying the last goodbye to them. On my way walking tothe station, i start to feel that the long journey to the station no longer look long.It seems so short. The MRT journey bought back alot of memory to me. The 10 morning when had to squeeze with the working adult and wearing office wear, when we are looking forward to what we will be doing when we reach there. The 10 evenings when we had to wait 7 mins for the train to depart from changi. The clouds we so often look at after we know how to admire them. The places at the East side, schools, buildings, flats. Everything. All this will now be a memory of mine. A happy memory. An unforgtten memory. A good memory.
I want to thank you Mr Goh for getting MSD as a work attachment plasce and letting me get in. I want to thank you I-Lyn for her teaching and guidance and the treats she gave us. I want to thank you Heng Seng for his comments and advise. I want to thank you Mdm Lau for talking to us and keeping us accompany when we are bored. I want to thank you every staff. I want to thank you Hung Loong for bearing with me this 2 weeks.
I will miss NEA, National Environment Agency, MSD, Meteorological Service Division, Met. headquarters( my office), changi airport and all the staff there.
I sincerely wish them all the best and may God Bless Them.

posted by cutechicky @ 12/10/2004 0 Comments

Mon i was really sick. Temp had not gone down when i wake up in the morning. Felt so terrible that I need to ask Hung Loong to carry out the survey himself. Wake up at 6 to SMS him. Den i went to eat breakfast so that i can take the medicine. At around 730 I called mr goh to inform him that im sick. After that went to call I-Lyn. Tried calling her until 830 but mission failed cos she never switch on her hp. Ended up sms her. Almost slept for the whole day on Mon. Also did sum survey via phone and msn. Tired. Haha....
Finally recovered on Tues but still on medication. Gave the MC to I-Lyn and she was at a loss, dunno what to do with it. Dun understand why the teachers want us to give MC to our supervisor. We really sick what. Anyway, before going to the office, me and hung loong went to yishun to finish doing the 50 surveys. We went to yjc to ask for help. haha..den after that went back to the station to hunt for victims. haha..alot of teenagers are willing to help. but most working adults just turn us down. dun they know that we do survey for projects? they were young before right. haix.. sad.. anyway, also went to the changi met. stationto see how they operate. it was raining. luckily gt Mr Tay to drive us there. I-Ln was so thoughtful and kind that she bought 2 umbrellas. Then there were 2 on e car. so just nice for e 4 of us. Forgt to bring camera so end up never take any pics. the view there to see airplanes fly off is fantastic. It was such a beautiful sight that I-Lyn and e 2 of us stand in awe, although we are supposed to be looking at the instruments.hehe... Talk more personal things to Heng Seng that day.. haha. happy. Also found out alot of things when I-Lyn was talking to Mr Tay on the car. Quite amaze la.
Today we were collating data for the survey. It seems easy but it was a tedious job. Count until we siao. After that, meet alot of setback while doin the pie chart and bar graphs for the results. We must first do bar graphs for different age group. Then we need to do pie charts for the overall results. after today, i finally know how to group statistic using chart on the comp. before that, i was a "chart idiot" haha. have a terrble headache today. my head feel so heavy. luckily today can go home early by one hour. so manage to take a nap. tomorrow i need to go to the office first cos hung loong moving house then need to pray. poor me. so lonely.haha. but he will back before lunch la. so still ok. hope that i will be able to finish the report before lunch and after lunch we can finish the presentation slides. Then friday will be the day for our presentation and leaving ceremony.sob....

posted by cutechicky @ 12/08/2004 0 Comments

I'm sick!!! having a fever of ard 39 degree...last nite it was oni 37.8..now it hsot up...unbelievable.. webt to see a doc and took MC for tml juz in case. when i told them that i haf work attachment and im in jc, they were so shocked to hear that. they thought that jc dun haf work attachment.. e doctor sum more thought i was an art students..ate medicine n now feel beta..temp oso go down.. now oni 38.5 degree..hope that i will recover by mon. i feel so guilty if i haf to let hung loong carry out the survey himself. so juz hope by tonite, i will recover.

posted by cutechicky @ 12/05/2004 0 Comments

I totally agreed wif deanna that life is not meaningless.life will only be meaningless if you refused to explore and try out new things. u will definitely discovered activities that you like or enjoy doing. sumtimes, life seems to be black ad white. but if you keep on trying, participating, exploring, you will definitely see colour in ur life. juz take myslef as the real life eg. If i continue to be so inactive in school, just like when im in sec sch, i will not go for the interview for the work attachment. if i never, i will nt be working in the Met. station. If this happen, i will never realise that i like the working place there. i will not learn so many things. I will be wasting my hols, slacking away. If im inactive, i will not be an OGL. I will not mix well wif my bunch of good classmates. I will not never realise all the fun in the world. Hence, if u wan ur journey of life to be colourful, u need to go and find the way yourself. Time will wait for no one. no one will pave a path for u. u need to do it yourself. oni u, urself, know what u wan in life!!!

posted by cutechicky @ 12/04/2004 0 Comments

Wao..thats fast...one week had past without me knowing.. Work attachment was quite fun so far.. I really enjoy working there and talking to a lady in my office..she told me alot of things that I never realise while i was in school...
Firstly, she emphasized that a uni cert is ver important in singapore...without the cert, no matter how hardworking you are, you will never get promoted to a high post... english is also a very important languange. if you are only good at your chinese, you will always remain being a small fry in the company. Also, in every working place, there are people who are hardworking, intelligent, bootlickers. Those bootlickers of cos gt a higher rank then those whu are hardworking..Becos of money, becos of the wish to get a higher post, people will just backstab you in order to get what they want. In the Met. department, all the workers are being divided into 4 categoty. Division 1-4...Division 1 ppl pay is around $5000+, division 2 $3000+, division 3 $2000+, division 4 $1000+...if you are a uni grad, you will easily be in division 2. if not, you can oni remain in division 2. the working society is really more complicated than schools. working adults are less innocent than students. looking from this point of view, i concluded that schooling is still beta than working.
I have done 5 research topics and 2 essay questions this week. I felt a sense of satisfaction after completing the task. furthermore, we finished them before the date line. Thats why im proud of myself. haha.. yesterday i also design survey. the aim of the survey is to find out whether the public would like to see weather forecasts being displayed on the plasma screens at MRT stations. Next week I will be carrying out the survey and I need to finish 200 copies in 2 days. Although it seems alot, i will try my best to finish it. If the result is positive, then e Met. station will try to convince the SMRT management to show the weather forecasts on the plasma screens for free. After finish collating the results, i need to write a report and do a presentation. i feel as if i have returned to the pw world. however, i dun feel sad or unhappy at all...
I have learnt alot this week, from practical skills to research skills. I have learnt the most this week in my entire life. My life this week is the most meaningful. Frankly speaking, i enjoy working there. i like the enviornment there, the friendly and helpful people there. i will consider entering this field when i entered the working world.
lastly, i hope that all my friends whu are also having work attachment will haf fun at their work place and enjoy the short time there, just like me. to those whu haf nothing to do at home, i hope that you will be able to find meaningful activities to participate in instead of wasating the hols.. n to those whu advance, hope that you will study hard for ur term 1 test and do very well.

posted by cutechicky @ 12/04/2004 0 Comments