When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.

Went town shopping today with andrea. Quite a fruitful trip cos i bought a pair of shoes, a top, famous amos cookies, ate at tis jap stall for lunch and dine-in at kenny rogers for dinner. Met up wif choonie,js and dan for dinner. it was a last min thn bt nevertheless, we haf fun. yea.

e oni bad thng is, i spend quite alot. 80 bucks. half of the pay i gt for my tuition. tis weekend will b gg out again. most prob will spend quite alot again.

dun take me for granted. i wun be there for you when n where u like. i hate it.

posted by cutechicky @ 5/31/2007 0 Comments

To be happy, one has to think that he is happy.

"im a happy little ger. A happy little ger" Haha. Hope this will make me feel happy.

A crappy post. Shopping day tmr, gathering on sat and maybe a outing wif wenya on sun. Hope it will be a fun week ahead.

Happy or not, the earth continues to rotate. Time wait for no man.

posted by cutechicky @ 5/30/2007 0 Comments

im so afraid to show my feelings.
im so afraid to face it.
im so afraid to think of it,
to think of everything.

lying on e bed,
thinking of everything.
i realise, perhaps,
we arent meant to be.

memories flash through.
images appear.
heart hurts.
tears rolling.

as i cry myself to slp,
i told myself,
i need to put an end,
an end to everything.

posted by cutechicky @ 5/28/2007 0 Comments

Went jogging yesterday evening. Satisfied that I managed to jog one big round without stopping. However, I almost fainted after the jog! Was waiting for the traffic light to turn green when I realise that the people opposite me looks blurry. Im like having double or even tripple images. Have to hold on to the pole for support. Reached home safely but still feel giddy. Haix. Weak me. :(

A slacking weekend. Quite shuang. Super long never spend my weekend rotting away le. Haha. Rotting is an art. Muahaha.

Bumper car nxt thurs. Woohoo. Hope e funfair will still be at wdls. Haha.

Spider lilies(e show by rainie yang) is rated R21. Cant watch liao. Pirates of carribean, shreak 3, blades of glory, priceless.. anybody wana watch any one of them?

posted by cutechicky @ 5/27/2007 0 Comments

Bdae at sakae wif 4gracians:


[forever best friens. thx for being wif me all the time.]


[moley(e great sriptwriter) and me]


[ant and SQ boi boi]

204 gathering and my pre-bdae celebration:


[me wif my bdae cake]


[class photos wif wierd background]

posted by cutechicky @ 5/27/2007 0 Comments

Decided to walk home from my student house just now. Suddenly stand up from the bus-stop seats and walk off. Listening to songs and walking along the quiet stretch of road.

Walked and walked. I thot I knew the road back well as I have walked so many times to his house before. However, I realised im lost cos the surroundings look so unfamiliar. Continue walking towards the main road and realise Im getting further away from my house. Took the correct path and finally reach home.

During this not long nor short journey back home, alot of things run through my mind once again.

In a maze, you might get lost and took lots of U-turns. However, one day, you will still be able to find the exit that you have been looking for.
Looking at the same issue from the other point of view, after going through all the U-turns, you might find yourself back to the starting point again. Back to square roots. So you might be thinking, wats the point of entering the maze in the first place? Perhaps, if you never enter, you will not know all the beautiful scenary in the maze. If you never enter, you will never know how a maze is like.

There's always two sides to every issue. It really depends on how you see it.
For me, I know if I could turn back time, I would still want to enter the maze. Thats how stubborn and stupid I am.

posted by cutechicky @ 5/25/2007 0 Comments

A new year, a new me...

When the clock strikes 12 today, a new me will once be borned again. Maybe I should say, I will go back and becum the happy little ger that all my friends once knew. I will be the happy, naughty and playful chicky. I will be Ms Little Giggle once again. Thats my resolution which I have set for myself a few days back. (pray hard i will keep to my resolution)

Being simple and leading a happy life has always been my dream. Im going to continue to pursue my dream. Wish me luck. =p

posted by cutechicky @ 5/22/2007 0 Comments

had a fun weekend.

Sat:
Went monsoon to get a haircut wif andrea. ended up having a treatment n a haircut cos of e dead ends. spend 90 bucks! sianz. hair thinner bt fringe getting uglier. den went shopping around wif andrea n sq.. n we ate hans! yes. finally gt nice food. yummy. b4 we noe it, e sky was dark and we went home.

Sun:
class outing. e long waited 204 class outing. met at wdls to eat lunch. then took bus to ecp. cycled for 2 hours. accident happened!

daniel was cycling infront of me n suddenly he fly out frm his bike. im shocked to witness e scene n press e brake n scream at e same time. in e end, i fell oso. tts lk super stupid cos there was a distance between us. big toe nail chipped off. painful! fourth toe nail oso chipped but nt tat serious. n... i realise i oso gt a big blue black on my thigh today. im super accident prone. diao..

after tat was bbq! had fun cooking e food, eating e food. nice nice. ate quite alot n e catering food was quite nice. andrea xj n jiayong went out to bought a bdae cake for me. so happy. a pre-bdae celebration.. haha..

e mischievous me go n disturb e guys wif ice n cream. muahaha. quite fun cos they didnt bully me bk. hehe. had ice fight after that.

a fun weekend...

e 1st class outing wif different feelings

posted by cutechicky @ 5/21/2007 0 Comments

My pooh bear bear ran away from me. E one hanging on my phone. It just ran off and I simply cant find it. WTH. Search high n low ard my workplace bt didnt manage to locate it. When I realise it was gone, the first thing I did was to walk around trying to find it back, leaving my work undone. Sadly, it will never cum bk again. It has been hanging on my hp for one year le. =(

Piglet was lost shortly after i got it. Nw, its pooh turn. Its a broken family nw. I can feel e absence of one member whenever i touch e phone. Reali veri sad. Almost cried tat day. It means alot to me baz.

Sumone told me " If it belongs to u, it will come bk to u one day. If nt, no matter how hard u try to find it, u wun be able to locate it."

"its pointless to replace e old one wif a new one becos e feeling will nt be there. once lost, it will be lost"

posted by cutechicky @ 5/18/2007 0 Comments

went chilling wif my frien juz nw at sunplaza. a short session be get to noe him more. we talk, reali talk. it sets me thinking abt alot of things. nevertheless, memories came back. bt tat will b memories.

pointless...

posted by cutechicky @ 5/14/2007 0 Comments

Went to watch spiderman 3 today with 71 ppl at PS. Met up with ting and her church friens. Thot it might feel wierd to see meet her aft not seeing each other like 3 years? But, it wasnt as bad.

I almost fall aslp during e first part of e show. It became more interesting aft tat. Gross as well. Haha.

Working tmr again. Sian. My routine for weekdays will be:
1) Work
2) Tuition on tues and wed

Boring!

Having 204 class gathering nxt sun. cant wait for e fun tats waiting for me.. cycling! yea.

10 more days to my birthday. Guess it will b a different one from the past....

posted by cutechicky @ 5/13/2007 0 Comments

Congratulation for my bestest moley, deanna tan! She won the best scriptplay award n her team mate won e best director award n her team came in first. APPLAUSE.

Was super happy for her when I saw her film playing on the screen. Almost shouted. Omg. Now, I know e feeling of being happy for your frien. You really can feel it from the bottom of your heart. So proud of her..

Continue to pursue your dream and may you continue to win lots of awards and b a great scriptwriter in e future! Clap clap..

posted by cutechicky @ 5/13/2007 0 Comments

First day of work today. Pretty boring. 830-6. But i think im oni busy for 3 hours? or even less than tat. Haha. Tmr will be busier cos new system will be up.

Although e work enviornment nt tat nice, it is super near my hse and e pay is nt bad. Intend to work for lk 2mths. Endure for 2 mths den i will quit. PERSEVERENCE!!

Thinking of having to wake up early everyday, it feels so sianz. Dragging my feet to work today. Haha. Not sure whether issit first day of work thats why so free. Maybe tmr i will be complaining hw tough the job actually is. Hope not.

Looking forward to tomorrow nite. Meeting up with this secret ger. Just her n me. Haha. Shh..

Sat might be going down to orchard to support moley. Not sure gg down anot cos sun gg PS to watch movie. Will be quite tiring to go out consequtively for 3 days. Haha.

Ending off le. Need slp early. Looking forward to tmr, tmr nite i mean. =)

posted by cutechicky @ 5/10/2007 0 Comments

A good time for sorting out my thoughts. A good time to reorganise my time.

posted by cutechicky @ 5/09/2007 0 Comments

Couldnt sleep well last night. Too many things running across my mind. Furthermore, the weather is like super duber hot and humid. Slept at 1+ and woke up at 6+. After turning and tossing for dunno how long, finally fell into sleep again. Woke up at 9 tis morning. Things are still running across my mind when I wake up.

My mind is so occupied, so occupied with the same issue. My heart feels so heavy.

Sometimes I wonder, why must I be trapped here? Why cant I just live on happily? How come theres nothing Im happy about tis few months? How cum my mind is so preoccupied with nothing bt tis? Why?

So many people tell me so many things recently. All are nothing bt sad stories. They sadden me further. How cum suddenly people around me are not happy? Why?

Good friends tell me alot of things. Alot of advises. I know them all. I realli know them. It is not I dun wana follow those "advises". Its simply my heart dun wana follow them. Im one who follow my heart rather than my mind. Thats me. How I wish Im following my mind instead.

Perhaps after knowing what real happiness is all about, those simple happy events that happen in life is no longer happy enugh for me. Perhaps saddness fills my heart that I neglect those small happy events that are happening around me. Perhaps Im just hiding in my own world, hibernating in my own world, refused to come out. Perhaps im just reluctant to cross that starting line.

Dunno why. It kind of feel good to blog about my thots and feelings. May all my friends pick themselve up and be the happy guy or ger that I know. May you be happy.

Everytime we touch, I get this feeling. Everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky. Cant you feel my heartbeat fast, I want this to last, need you by my side.

posted by cutechicky @ 5/08/2007 0 Comments

lonely days from wednesday onwards. mama going to work le. since young, i need nt brg keys out coz there will definitely be sumone at hm. nw, my grandparents are gone. both parents working. e hse will b so empty. i dread tat day to cum. i hate it.

i dunno ware im heading to now...

posted by cutechicky @ 5/07/2007 0 Comments

Im so afraid that I would be standing on the same spot for long. I wana to move forward but yet, im clinching on to e past.

I find myself thinking alot lately. I find myself thinking of the past. I find myself wanting to get back to the past. I know I shdnt tink abt it anymore. But I juz keep thinking...

posted by cutechicky @ 5/06/2007 0 Comments

Your Love Type: INFP

The Idealist In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship. For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up. Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive. However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space. Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ

posted by cutechicky @ 5/06/2007 0 Comments

You Are Ernie

Playful and childlike, you are everyone's favorite friend - even if your goofy antics get annoying at times. You are usually feeling: Amused - you are very easily entertained You are famous for: Always making people smile. From your silly songs to your wild pranks, you keep things fun. How you life your life: With ease. Life is only difficult when your friends won't play with you!

posted by cutechicky @ 5/06/2007 0 Comments

You Have Fantastic Karma

You are a kind, sensitive, and giving person. And all your good deeds will pay off - if they haven't already. But you're not so concerned with what you get in return anyway. You have an innate caring nature - and nothing can change that!

You Probably Look Younger Than Your Age

You live a healthy lifestyle and know how to take care of yourself. You'll probably have a youthful glow for many years.

You Are An ISFP

The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist. People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you. You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words. Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

posted by cutechicky @ 5/06/2007 0 Comments

Your Inner Color is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart. You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone. Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

posted by cutechicky @ 5/06/2007 0 Comments

finally went shopping today. bought a tee, a eye mask for mama, a hair cream. thats all. ate stingray wif andrea. nt reali veri nice. bt ok lah. haha..tired aft e long day.

nth seems to interest me anymore.

posted by cutechicky @ 5/06/2007 0 Comments

Been rotting and hibernating at home since exam ended. Quite a nice feeling I would say. Pei my mama cos shes alone at home. Then will talk crap and play together. Every evening will have tuition. Then after tuition will go home watch tv until at nite. Thats my life now.

Dun realii feel lk working. No urge to find a job. Bt i noe i need to find one la. need money and to make my resume looks nicer.haha. so will try harder nxt week.

sumtimes, u would prefer not to noe sth than to noe more things.

posted by cutechicky @ 5/05/2007 0 Comments

sae im stubborn, sae im naive or even stupid.

hate myself for being so weak.

posted by cutechicky @ 5/02/2007 0 Comments

I suddenly feel so lost aft exam is over. I no longer know what I should do. Feel like slacking but dun feel like slacking. Feel like going out but feel like staying at home. Feel like working but feel like resting. Confused.

Missing you..

posted by cutechicky @ 5/01/2007 0 Comments