When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.

Couldnt sleep well last night. Too many things running across my mind. Furthermore, the weather is like super duber hot and humid. Slept at 1+ and woke up at 6+. After turning and tossing for dunno how long, finally fell into sleep again. Woke up at 9 tis morning. Things are still running across my mind when I wake up.

My mind is so occupied, so occupied with the same issue. My heart feels so heavy.

Sometimes I wonder, why must I be trapped here? Why cant I just live on happily? How come theres nothing Im happy about tis few months? How cum my mind is so preoccupied with nothing bt tis? Why?

So many people tell me so many things recently. All are nothing bt sad stories. They sadden me further. How cum suddenly people around me are not happy? Why?

Good friends tell me alot of things. Alot of advises. I know them all. I realli know them. It is not I dun wana follow those "advises". Its simply my heart dun wana follow them. Im one who follow my heart rather than my mind. Thats me. How I wish Im following my mind instead.

Perhaps after knowing what real happiness is all about, those simple happy events that happen in life is no longer happy enugh for me. Perhaps saddness fills my heart that I neglect those small happy events that are happening around me. Perhaps Im just hiding in my own world, hibernating in my own world, refused to come out. Perhaps im just reluctant to cross that starting line.

Dunno why. It kind of feel good to blog about my thots and feelings. May all my friends pick themselve up and be the happy guy or ger that I know. May you be happy.

Everytime we touch, I get this feeling. Everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky. Cant you feel my heartbeat fast, I want this to last, need you by my side.

posted by cutechicky @ 5/08/2007