When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.: 04/01/2007

Exam is finally over. Woohoo. Tink I will definitely do badly this sem.

During the exam period, my beloved grandma passed away. I can still remember that day when I came home from library, seeing her having difficulty drinking water. An hour later, my brother voice woke me up from my nap saying my ah ma has difficulty in breathing. I can still remember my mother was crying badly beside her bed. Staying calm, I told her to call the nursing home doctor. The stupid doctor wasted our time talking rubbish to us, saying she will reach only like 3 hour plus later. The next moment, she left us. My mama broke down, my brother and I started crying. Without knowing, the wake was over. Now, my house is so empty. From 6 people to 5, and now 4. Hope my mama will recover from the grief soon.

Life is so unpredictable. Thinking that my ah ma can go for a holiday after my ah gong passed away( cos my ah gong has walking difficulty), she started to fall sick and suffered from illness. She didnt get to enjoy her life and just like that, the illness took her freedom away.

She's a great grandma who have taken good care of my bro and I. She's a great mother who have taken good care of my mom. She's a great mother-in-law. She's a good person. I know God will take good care of her since she's a nice person. May you rest in peace.

Seriously, I think im becoming more and more pro. Applause for me please... (clap, clap).. Can u believe i use a day(less than that after deducting bathing time,eating and etc...) to finish study 9 lecture notes? It's like I use less than a day to finish studying a module. The most fantastic thing is I didnt really read those notes before.. Thats me, the pro.

The consequence is I think Im gg to flunk my IT or do badly. Shit. Im like stunt when I opened n read the whole question booklet.

Thats not like the worst. I make a stupid and idiotic mistake for my accounting!!! I didnt realise those figures were all in thousands. The funny thing is the question says the company use an amount of 18 million to repay debt when the debt figure oni show like 26000. I realise something is wierd and I came across this bt the cock eye me didnt read the question properly. So dumb.haix.

3 more paper to go. Hope I wun die this sem. Gif me all e luck...

First paper later. The feeling of taking the first paper is different this time now. Everytime, I will get the msg. But not now. Hope everything will go well for the exam. I wana get into B&F.

Praying hard that my mind will be concentrating on the paper.

There's no eternity in this world

Next week I will be entering the battle field. Same goes to other NTU students baz. Really no mood to take exam. No anxiety, no fear, no urgency. Nothing. Numb. Study at a super tortise pace. Feel like running away...

Not feeling well....

静静的手牵手是最简单的梦。

I hate walking that route back home. The no-direction me always gt lost around my neighbourhood. I always cant remember how to walk there from my block. How strange. Now, I know clearly how to walk there.

I used to love that place. The quietness and the peaceful feelings it gave me. The memories and happy moments I have there. The place I wanted to go to after every trip out. The starry night, the long talk, the quiet night together.

I hate the place now. Whenever I walked through that path back home after tuition in the evening, it will trigger me to think about things which I dun wana think about. I will never fail to feel the twinge of saddness in my heart. Memories.. Yes, MEMORIES will just come back..

Missing you badly

时间一天一天的过去。
回忆一天一天的离我而去。
我紧紧地握着正在空中飞翔的风筝。
我好害怕，好害怕，
它会逐渐的离我而去。

I was so frightened when I cant remember whether it WAS the left or the right.

The awful feelings came back yesterday night that I cried myself to sleep.

GEMINI - IrresistibleNice. Love is one of a kind. Greatlisteners. Lover not a fighter, but willstill knock you out. Trustworthy..Always happy. Loud. Talkative. OutgoingVERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Hasa beautiful smile. Generous. Strong.THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.

--> Thats me!!! A super nice and happy ger....

When you are left with no choice, you have to accept whatever that is laid infront of you.
Its difficult since you are forced to. But, it makes you grow up too.
The world is never as simple as I thought.
Perhaps Im just too innocent to be involved in this game.

"I just wana be a simple and happy little girl."
Now, I realised that it is neither easy to be simple nor happy.

Just wake up!!OMG. Im supposed to study like REAL HARD??? Guess im still a pig. After mugging in the lib frm 10 to 630, im simply too tired. Cant stand it. I still have 3 weeks more to go and I already feel that my energy bar is only left with half full.

不知不觉中，我发现我依然还在等待。我依然还会在茫茫人海中，寻找你的脸孔。

Finally all tests, projects and assignments have come to an end. Will be getting back the results next week. Realy hope I will do well for projects and assignments so that I need not worry so much for the final paper.

Feel like giving myself a break before I chiong for exam again. But, realise that I dun haf much time left to study for e exam. Haix.. Tiredd...

Cant wait for exams to be over..

Im so blur. Blur like a sotong...
The whole stupid story goes like this:

I was at woodlands lib studying wif andrea and wenya. Den it was time to go for my tuition. My student house is at marsiling. When I reached woodlands mrt platform, without thinking where I was going, I just turn and stand there to wait for the train. The train arrived and I realise it was going towards marina bay. e paiseh me turned to walk to the other side.
After tuition, I happily board the train. Then, I heard "kranji". I didnt realise anything was wrong. When the train starts to depart from kranji, I realised this time round, I realli board the wrong train. The super paiseh me alight at yew tee to board the CORRECT train to marina bay.

A 10 mins trip home becam a 20 mins trip..

Just reach home not long ago. Went chinatown to SING! But wasnt veri enthu today. Dunno why. N it triggers me to tink abt sth. If I didnt go singing e other time wif wenya and follow my heart to do the thing i wan, will things still turn up tis way? Perhaps, I already know that the ending will be tis way. So now, I realise that it wasnt as devastating as i thot it will be. life still goes on. no doubt, its saddening. Slowly, Ive come to understand that it is just a matter of time before I reach the end. Maybe an hr, maybe a day or a year. The end has always been there, waiting me to arrive and now, ive reached the place.

Constantly thinking of you...

When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.

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