When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.

Half of the term break has passed and Ive not get any work done. No mood to do anything. Just feel like slacking and stoning around..

I miss the sun. I wana get under the sun and sweat it all out. I wana feel the heat on my skin. I miss the beach. I wana feel the sea breeze. I wana see the wave of the sea. I miss singing. I wana sing my heart out. I wana shout it all out.

Missing you.

posted by cutechicky @ 2/28/2007 0 Comments

Problems are accumulating, just like a snowball rolling down the slope.

I sincerely hope that God will help me get out of these shit.. Im tired. Tired of everything, everything in my life.

posted by cutechicky @ 2/26/2007 0 Comments

Love is so strange.
The magic moment came and you grab that chance.
You yearn for it and so you treasure it.
Yet fate and destiny play a fool with it.
You fight hard, you tried hard.
But you lost.
Because the power of you alone is insufficient to conquer it.
You did your best but to your dismay,things dun turn up well.
Disappointed and hurt.

Time doesnt stop.
The earth continues rotating.
Maybe it is time to move on.
I know you cant forget.
I know its difficult.
I only can pray for you that time will heal the wound.

posted by cutechicky @ 2/26/2007 0 Comments

LIFE IS TIRING

Why do I have to make a decision when neither turning right or left seems correct? Turning right to follow my feelings or turing left to be more rationale? I know I should turn left, but my feelings are pulling me back again and again. Im stuck in the middle, not knowing what to do. Perhaps.. Perhaps I should just remain there, waiting for the wave to carry me to wherever it wans me to go.

posted by cutechicky @ 2/26/2007 0 Comments

posted by cutechicky @ 2/24/2007 0 Comments

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR TO ALL

It has been a long time since I blog. Nothing much to blog recently but since today is the start of the lunar year, I shall blog something. :)

This week was a super busy week for me. Have things to do everyday. Quiz and project. Have to present my project findings on wednesday! Cruel cruel. I spend like 3 hours doing the project just now. Grr..
Was busy preparing for vdae prez as well. Vdae was spend with Ju at heartland mall, CWP. Had a super late lunch together at pasta mania. Ate the strawberry dessert which wasnt really that nice. Maybe I was too full then to enjoy it. Haha. Then went to catch the movie "happy bdae". I was told that watching it will make one tears, but I didnt! Haha. Brave soul. After which, went window shopping around CWP then head for sembawang shopping centre to have dinner. We took 856 and the the journey was 1 hr, which is like 45 mins longer then taking train. Both of us slept on the bus becos we were simply too tired. Ended up in a so-called famous curry fish head coffee shop opposite of sembawang shopping centre. But this so-called famous curry fish head coffee shop has a very bad tempered worker who told us that we took a long time to order food plus a not-that-nice famous curry fish head dish. Haha. Then sat down and talk at the playground near my hse. Dada..Home sweet home and vdae is over..












My gift to him...












































A different type of feeling on this year vdae.

posted by cutechicky @ 2/18/2007 0 Comments

Its weekend again. A busy weekend for me and a busy week ahead. E hectic school life begins again. I still remember how my life became very busy last sem aft school starts for 1mth+. Now, its the 5th week of school. Again, life turns busy because of school work. Quizzes, projects, presentations,tutorials and lots of textbooks readings. But now, things are different from last sem lah.

Anw, went to rebond my hair last wed with wenya. Went to this shop which look veri professional from the outside in far east. Not only they provide hair services, they also provide facial and some other body services. Coincidentally, we received their leaflets when we were walking to fareast from orchard mrt station. So, we decided to rebond our hair there. The result was quite ok. But they arent professional at all. Same shop, both wan rebonding, but the proceduress were different.

Went back to yjc today as they were setting up booths to celebrate values day. Quite quiet as compared to last year. Empty as well. Saw familiar faces there. Teachers,classmates and schoolmates. Memories came back. I miss school life. Not uni life though.

I have to study 8 chapters of my FM textbook in 4 days. Out of this 4 days, im goin out one of e day and doing project on one of e day as well. So, im left with 2 days. 2 days to touch 8 chapters. The worse thing is, I never read my notes, do my tut(ans is provided so i didnt bother to look thru) nor listen much in class. Fainting...

posted by cutechicky @ 2/11/2007 0 Comments

Losing my concentration. Getting very very tired. Tired of everything. Didnt do well for my accounting quiz. Tutor asked what happen becos I can answer most of the questions during tutorial. I really understand. Its just that Im not concentrating. Feeling so restless that my friend even commented that she can see that Im very tired. Indeed, im tired physically and mentally.

When will I be able to get to that small deserted island that Ive been wanting to go?

posted by cutechicky @ 2/08/2007 0 Comments

I might not have lot of friends in my life. However, I have met some really good ones. I know I can trust them and they will always be there for me when I need them. They will lend me their listening ears, give me advice, share my joy and sorrow. We might not be chatting or talking to each other frequently or even meeting up only once in a blue moon, but I know they are there, they are there for me. Similarly, to my besties, I will always be here for you too.

What really is happiness?

posted by cutechicky @ 2/07/2007 0 Comments

E sentosa trip was over. Heres a summary of what I did during the weekend.

Went school at night. The briefing was a stupid one because they only thing they said was to ask us to drink more water the next day. They wanted us to meet in school at night so that we wont be late the next morning. So funny of them. So the 3 of us walked from SRC to the coffeeshop near city harvest to have supper. Ate sambai stingray with rice. Haha. After that, we walked back to SRC. We felt that it was pointless to sleep for just 3 hours so we decided not to sleep at all. We walked around hall 2 for don't know how many times that day. Haha. Then we ate our tidbits and chat for the whole night. Even played bingo, drawing squares on those pathetic receipt.haha

Set off on Sunday morning 4.45am. Sat on the bus and we were the most noisy gang. Haha. Was super sad when they spilt the of us up to do different things. Lijuan was in charge of the bicycle station, wenya in charge of carrying shoes, and im in charge to pushing the surf board in e sea as well as carrying life vest from one point to the other. All are "sai gang" Grrr

The black chicky was under the sun for so long that it can turn red as well. Wahaha. Abit more tanned now, which mean im darker now. Not only that, i shoulder and neck are red. Uneven tanning with the shirt and lanyard mark.

Overall, I can only say it was quite an experience for me but it was super tiring that I still keep sleeping now. :)

posted by cutechicky @ 2/07/2007 0 Comments

Was queueing up to buy food at can B with wenya n andrea today when i found that something was not right with my wallet. It became "skinnier". So I opened my wallet and found out that my cardholder was lost! It contains my IC,ATM card and Matric card. So I traced back along the path that I have walked from my seats to the stall but I didnt manage to see my cardholder. Searched my whole bag but I didnt see it as well. Called home to ask if it was at home but it wasnt. So, I thot i dropped it inside the bus or mrt station as I did not take out my wallet from my wallet since I reached school. Decided to wait until school is over before doing any actions.

School finished and i went FAL to search for SMRT and students affairs office(SAO) contact numbers. Called up but theres no cardholder item in their loss n found list. Then SAO told me to email this particular person the details so that he will be able to contact me if someone pass them my loss item. When I opened my NTU email, I saw this mail that reads "Ive found at IC at canteen B. Please contact me"

Woohoo. A sense of relief. Thanks to this guy called Tony who return me my thing. Thanks so much!!!

After knowing that I lost my cardholder, I was sad, not because of losing the cards, but something else. The feeling is so strong that i cant take it at all. TERRIBLE.

Going back school tmr nite and will be staying over there cos i will be our school surf n sweat helpers. Its an event held at sentosa on sun.

I have to keep myself busy now, to keep my mind occupy.

posted by cutechicky @ 2/02/2007 0 Comments

God will make a way
When there seems to be no way
He works in ways
We cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will make a way

Yes. God will make a way. Theres no dead end in life. Its up to you to choose e route you wana take. If you take e wrong route, turn back and try the other routes. One of them, will definitely lead you to the place you want. Indeed, God will make a way when we are lost.

Thank you God for listening to my prayers, accompanying me during this period of time, picking me up when Im down, making me come to my senses. Please continue to help me, help me to find the correct path to my life.

posted by cutechicky @ 2/02/2007 0 Comments