When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.

500th post: A new beginning

I realised I have wasted my year 1 and year 2 in university. Besides giving tuition which is now part of my life and I enjoyed teaching them despite all the headaches I got from them, I have not done anything during that two years. I just let feelings and emotions carry me away from my life, far far away from where I should be at. Tutorials not done, quizzes not properly studied, textbooks not read, skipping lectures and seminars, going tutorials empty-handed. Flip my textbook few days before examinations. That was my university life. I kind of regretted. All these caused my grades to be so cui now.

I finally woke up when school started this year. I decided to work extremely hard during my last year in university. I want to put in my best, to show that if I study hard, I am capable of achieving good grades as well. Things are pretty good right now. For my two core modules, I have catched up to where the prof stops before term break. Will study for my electives next.

Now, Im going to do one thing which I should have done it long ago.

To the first him, goodbye. I know you are not happy and are stress with things. I know I haven been contacting you much and sometimes even forgot to reply your sms. But do remember, if you really need me, just give me a sms. Think hard of what you want in life. Nobody can help you choose your destination. Although people around you can set up paths where you can walk, ultimately its you who decide which route to take. Meet up soon, Next week I guess. Keep in contact=)

To the second him, goodbye. Play less and study more. Its important to keep a balance between play and study. We have drifted far apart since everything ended. I cant say we are good friends now, but at least good classmates who will still talk during gathering. Stay happy in life. =)

Now, im going to lead a brand new life. Gek Eng, remember of what you have written today and work hard for the rest of your uni life!

Jiayou, Gek Eng!

Jiayou too, my dear ger!=)

posted by cutechicky @ 10/04/2008