When theres no more tears, it means that you have totally given up.

Today will be the last day of 2006. Since I will not be online tonight, Im going to pen down my thots and feelings for this entire year now followed but some new year resolutions.

Frankly speaking, 2006 has not really been a good year to me since the first day of the year. I still remembered the tears I shed on the first day of 2006. Perhaps, that was the bad omen for the year. Many unhappy events happened following that. However, there were happy moments as well.

So I joined the working force on 3rd jan 2006. IRAS property tax clerical officer was my first proper position. Previously, I only worked for roadshows and all that. Get to know some good friends over there. From that job, I get to know what working life is really all about. Have to bear with some demanding callers and when reprimanded by ur superior or the callers, I can only bear with it. Wanted to leave that job after a month or two, but because of the friends down there, I worked till June. A great sense of acheivement as it means that Ive got high tolerance level.

I still remembered the day when Ju told me his going army. I were idling at my work desk when I received his sms, telling me that he will be going to army soon. At that moment, tears just simply rolled down my cheeks. Was shocked and sad because I thought I need not face such situation at all. I still remembered the last time we met before he was kidnapped into the jail(Jail becos he cant even leave the place on weekends). I cried and cried although I promise him I wun cry. Super crybaby. During the period when he is in there, I felt so lonely. Hp was not allowed in the camp so he can only sneakily sms me. I waited day and night for his sms. Whenever I recieved his sms, I will be so happy. Finally, the awful period was over and we can meet again.

After that, I think we really spend quite alot of time together. We even worked together with my gege and his frien together for two days. Haha.

Finally, the hols life was over. School starting soon. I decided to register for the FOC camp without realising that it falls on his bdae. I was choosen for the camp. At that time, I was stucked in a dilemma, not sure whether to go to the camp or stayed to accompany him. Finally, I made the decision to attend the camp. That was one of the biggest mistake I had made this year. Haix..

Uni life was quite slack at first. Like most people said, biz was a slack course. Thats what I think also until all the graded projects came one by one. Every week I have to stay back to do projects and every week, Ive got presentations. Thats when I neglected every other things in my life. Weekdays n most of the saturdays were booked for projects. Sun became my only rest day. I kept myself at home most of the sun, slacking, sleeping, watching tv. I didnt go out with him or even my friends.

Time pass very quickly during that busy period. When all the projects were finally over, examinations were near the corner. Left with only a week to prepare for my exam, I spend every single day with wenya at wdls lib. We studied until late night even on sun. Cant blame anyone for that hard period of time as it was my fault for not touching my textbooks and even e notes at all for that half sem. I was surprised I managed to survive because never in my life, I need to chiong so hard for my exam. During the exam period, some other sad things happened as well. However, I decided to put all other worries aside because I wanted to concentrate on studying. Now, I realised that I shouldnt have done tat.

Finally exam was over. Holidays began. This hols was abit different from the hols I had previously. And now, its e end of 2006!!

I wana thx alot of people. First, my sec sch gang. ShiQi, e ger who always wana sell her butt off, for always listening to my problems. Andrea, always there for me when I needed her. We have becum so close that I enjoy the silence between us when we are not talking. Deanna, the biz women, who always lighten my days up by telling us lame jokes. Stephy, a good shopping mate. Next, my jc friends. Although we are no longer as close as last time, I know that they will be there for me when I need them. Uni friens, wenya,lijuan,jing yuan. Next, my family members for tolerating my nonsence and becuming a soft toy freak like me. hehe. Last but not least, e person who has brought joy and laughter to my life, tolerating my stuborness, my weaknessess and everythn bad abt me. I seldom mention him in my blog. Now, I wana sae it out. Big thanks to Juju...

End now...going out soon...

posted by cutechicky @ 12/31/2006